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decadence

ALOHA! I'm Michelle, 15 going on SWEET 16 5th February. I'm not a nerd though i'm in a triple science class, cross my heart. The Fairfield Choir is the best opportunity i ever got, and it'll rock your socks off. Starbucks is totally awesome and kicks ass! I've a penchant for pink, i'm mad about Choir Clique and crazy over God.:)

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Sunday, 15.11.09, 11.56pm

Thursday, January 29, 2009
6:45 PM

if its ever gonna be better, i need assurance now.

today was pretty fun.

went ikea with deborah and all, and got some stuff for RYMD.

my idea and i wanted to pay for all, but deborah let me pay only half.

lessons totally sucked.

the only time i seriously went mad was 2nd time of e maths.

adriel and nicholas are ridiculous, seriously.

all their stupid songs.

but other than that, i couldn't exactly concentrate.

i got so jittery even in first period.

so glad weekend's coming.

probably can concentrate more.

but right now, its really horrible.

especially bio.

total, ugh.

anyway, i really hope this can be over soon.

6 days, very long.

and no, not my birthday.

sort of la, but whatever.

concerns like everything?

don't bother asking me even if you wanna know.

i'm not gonna say anything at all.

don't force me.

actually not much mood to blog.

went really mad on the bus cos i kept playing with the stuff we bought.

and finally i got to eat ikea meatballs! :D

i really need alot of support right now.

i can't be exactly bothered with anything except this.

its zapping my concentration away!

gosh.

and i totally failed e maths class test.

i'm such a dood.

i got HALF of what ada got.

wth, i'm so pissed off at myself.

and i know teachers have alot of authority,

but they DON'T have the authority to use violence just to WAKE PEOPLE UP.

wth, hitting people so hard and loud and repeatedly with a book is just SO not okay la.

and its someone else's book.

zomg, everyone's going mad now, i think.

going crazy and doing really bizzare things?

and assembly this morning, zomg.

i hate to say this, but 2009 sucks so far.

and thursdays sucks even more.

i really hate this.

i don't want to cry on my birthday.

i wish i was born earlier or later.

so many freaking tests on the week/day itself.

and just before it,

i've to find out if i'm gonna be more upset or happy.

its one or the other.

extreme but that's a fact.

i'm praying very hard for a positive change.

really.

no ONE deserves an unhappy birthday, or an unhappy life.

NO ONE.

but life's just ironic.

GET WELL SOON YEEWEI. :)

~~this thing totally sucks.~~

~~its like 'day one' now.~~

~~freaking horrible.~~

~~like, another 3+ more actual days to suffer,~~

~~not counting weekends,~~

then i'll know whether i'm gonna be totally free or really happy once again.
talking about ikea, i really miss those times.
so much.
i wish it could be back to normal soon, even before the deadline is up.

~~maybe i didn't cherish enough, or maybe i was being taken for granted.~~

~~i really want it to begin right, and not cry my whole life out,~~

~~nor cry for myself on my own birthday.~~

~~its just not right, not what it should be.~~

~~cos if others can survive so long,~~

~~so can we, if we were even supposed to be.~~

Labels: i hate this part right here.

Saturday, December 27, 2008
4:11 PM

if only everything was as perfect as movies.

I. AM. BORED!

honestly.

home's boring.

i've been a super good girl though.

packed my wardrobe, swept the whole house.

and zomg, this sucks.

just found out my phone bill's like $50+?

HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE.

i've like 100 mins free outgoing.

that's like, almost 2 hours?

and 1000 messages.

i totally record my outgoing time and messages.

and ALL NOT EXCEEDED.

wtf?

apparently M1 charges $25 for every 500 smses, but i've 1000 free,

so that means minus $50 right?

they ended up minus-ing only $28.18.

i think i've been cheated by them ALL the time.

stupid M1.

so what if connection good?

and now i'm paying for the three m1 number thing.

wtf?

stupid m1.

i wanna switch to singtel asap.

unlimited sms!

i bet that'll save me a freaking lot of money.

m1's pissing me off alot.

first time i go scrutinise the bill.

i'm getting cheated!

well anyway,

i've a margarita craving.

yeah, i drank alcohol.

at the mexican restaurant!

it's nice, frozen margaritas.

slushie and cool, and the bitter taste isn't noticable.

i drank probably 1/4 of my dad's mug.

not too bad, around $6 sing i think?

sigh, i miss esplanade, KL, east coast, choir clique and 2E so much!

oh yes, and bowling.

killer, i've so many 'cravings'.

and i'm seriously tempted to list them out on my wishlist.

KL isn't nice in terms of transport and clean places to go,

but shopping's seriously good!

sadly, i shopped so much and even after hanging my new stuff in my wardrobe,

i still can push everything to one side and it only takes up like, 1/4 of the space in there?

that's how little stuff i have.

but shopping really killed my feet.

but i've really nice clothes now!

i think i'm really hopeless.

i wear the clothes i like so much, and then comes new stuff,

and the old ones aren't gonna see the light of day anymore.

well,

it's 40 DAYS to my BIRTHDAAAAAAY!

or one month and nine days,

or 5+ weeks,

or 960 hours,

maybe 57, 600 minutes,

and around 3,456,000 seconds more!

how random.

Random fact!

470,000,000 seconds after 5th feb '94, 10:48pm is:

Sunday, December 28, 2008 at 6:21:20 PM

super cool!

it's just tomorrow.

oh, and i just remembered what date is it tomorrow.

one month anniversary of my grandpa.

i hope he's having a fun time playing mahjong or something in heaven!

and i still cannot shake off the thoughts and images of the three days.

my mind still forces me to think and visualise the images.

last night, i couldn't sleep for awhile cos i was thinking about it again.

sigh.

when will i ever find peace?

i prayed and prayed, but it's not really enough yet.

i still can 'see' everything clearly in my mind.

the first day, how i stood so far away cos of fear.

and how i dream about stuff that happens after that.

i still remember, i had this dream commemorating the anniversary,

complete with a movie-like poster, with the whole family.

that was the only dream i can visualise till now.

when oh when.

The world slows down

But my heart beats fast right now

I know this is the part

Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now

All that's lefts goodbye to

Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here

I just can't take your tears

I hate this part right here

and sorry for the sudden randomness of the song lyrics and the few paragraphs above it.

was listening to the song and now i feel so lost.

no mood to blog anymore, nor say more random stuff.

just not in the mood.

goodbye.

Labels: i hate this part right here.

wishlist

THAT STARBUCKS CHRISTMAS 2009 BOTTLE!
Awesome Sweet Sixteen :)
~~Nokia 5800 Xpress Music~~
pink daniel yam dress!
tatty teddy! :)
~~2009 SYF gold~~ (honours)
singapore flyer! :)
FORMULA ONE TIX!
~~triple science.~~
~~BALLOONS. :)~~
watch Jeff Dunham live!
London! Paris! Italy! Maldives!
HSM3 DVD

chatterbox

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