ALOHA! I'm Michelle, 15 going on SWEET 16 5th February. I'm not a nerd though i'm in a triple science class, cross my heart. The Fairfield Choir is the best opportunity i ever got, and it'll rock your socks off. Starbucks is totally awesome and kicks ass! I've a penchant for pink, i'm mad about Choir Clique and crazy over God.:)


♥ada
♥adelin
♥ailin, jessica
♥al-emporio
♥allinda
♥allison tan

♥brendan

♥celine
♥celine, jessica
♥chatterhoax
♥chin ngee

♥deborah
♥dione

♥elisse
♥elle
♥esther
♥eunice
♥eunice, celine

♥faye
♥fenny

♥huiling

♥jessica
♥jianping
♥jolenda
♥jolenda2
♥juniper

♥kaixin
♥kimberley kiew
♥kimberly choo

♥laozhabor
♥leonard
♥lincoln

♥meiying
♥minxian

♥natalia
♥natalia, sarah
♥nicole wong
♥noelle

♥pamela
♥petros

♥rebecca
♥rebecca lau
♥richelle
♥ruijun

♥sarah-ann
♥sofia
♥soh&low

♥vanessa

♥wallic
♥wing sze

♥xiaxue
♥xi yun
♥xing yi
♥xiuwen
♥xiu yun

♥yee wei
♥yukling

♥zoey

♥6c '06
♥6D '06
♥6g '06


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Sunday, 15.11.09, 11.56pm

well,
a short post before i get everything ready for later:D
sighh!
gotta find where exactly is PLMGS:D
oh well,
kinda worried about later.
hahah!
better bring my scores along:D
hmm,
its a big event with the principal and 3 VPs of our school,
among other schools of course.
:D
anyway,
today went for dental super early!
D:
was at 8am,
woke up at 7 D:
sigh!
and my dentist was like,
im not gonna give another chance cos your first chance was when i put a loose wire.
ok..
lol.
so now the wire's kinda tight.
can feel the teeth moving!
so pain D:
not very,
but it hurts?
cos its 5 times tighter.
should spray hot water:D
hahah!
cant bite now.
cant imagine power chains D:
lalalala.
but im gonna bear with it.
grit my teeth and bear with it!
hopefully tonight the dinner is soft to eat,
and my teeth doesnt hurt much.
shopping tmr!
:D
heh.
im feeling super desperate now.
i think tmr celine might be shocked at how many things i want to buy and bought:D
oh well,
time to go chase my auntie for my lunch.
leaving house around noon:D
sigh!
now where is PLMGS??!
D:
ah well,
keep praying for the choir alright?
this concert means alot:D
gotta find those stupid make up stuff le:D
and pack my shoes!
:D
toodles(:

Labels: 3 more days:D, enchanted:D

IM BACK!!
lol.
anyway,
had a super duper great time with my cousin! :D
oh yes,
i had a sleep over:D
oh well,
shall talk about each day briefly:D
shall not bore you all with another super long post:D

day one, monday
well,
met my cousin at jurong east,
had mac for lunch,
then cabbed back to her house.
used the computer for awhile to play some games,
then later on i guess we played even more.
had dinner later on,
which i forgot what it was:D
supposed to sleep early so could make breakfast the next morning,
but we talked so much till we slept after one i guess:D
hahaha!
so many secrets(:

day two, tuesday
woke up,
made omelette for me and joshua,
while jessica had scrambled eggs:D
lunch was porridge,
which was pretty ok.
i think it was porridge.
if not its something else i forgot D:
oh well.
later on,
played with jessica,
and had to chase joshua out cos he would make a hugeeee mess.
bathed around 430,
then went out to watch enchanted!
oh my,
its such a wonderful show!
shall talk about it later:D
hmm,
had beef noodles for dinner.
super yummy:D
ahaha.
then had a whole box of popcorn to myself:D
stupid 'blackout' happened during the movie,
will talk about it later on:D
anyway,
reached 'home' close to ten i guess,
then somehow the gays called and jessica decided to ask aaron questions?
lol.
anyway,
they were super noisy and bo liao so i hung up after like,
five mins of trying to figure out what they were doing:D
anyway,
had a probably shorter talk and kept sms-ing in the dark:D
hahah!
slept close to 11 i guess,
if not 12,
cos i was feeling alittle more tired than usual:D

day three, wednesday
well,
had cereal for breakfast,
then left for science centre!
:D
pretty boring still,
but took one or two pictures with jessica there:D
oooh,
i love reflections(:
LOL.
anyway,
watched some lightning show for a few mins,
which the lightning bolt was super loud,
then walked to another place.
watched a chick trying to peck its way out of the shell!
:D
read somewhere it can take up to six hours so decided to walk a little more before going ack to see if the chick has pecked its way out,
but forgot about that poor chick:D
hahah!
went some stuffy food court to eat,
and had soya sauce chicken rice!
:D
oh my,
super yum,
but still cant beat that soya sauce chicken from crystal jade:D
oh my,
im hungry D:
anyway,
later went back,
played some stupid thing,
then had dinner.
sweet corn soup!
ahahaha.
delish:D
went to sleep pretty early,
but not before the gays called again,
cos they say i always complain bored.
D:
they're making me even more bored cos they call and play guitar and sing and thats all i hear so call for what?
so boring D:
LOL.
but its entertainment i guess,
considering a bunch of those kind of gays cant do anything except call and make noise with the gay song:D
lol.
slept around 11 i guess,
which is getting earlier and earlier!
:D

day four, thursday(today)
well,
woke up later than the rest,
cos i woke up and went back to sleep cos i was feeling slightly giddy
cos i guess i fought with the pillow in my sleep or something,
and ended up sleeping with my head on the floor.
made me giddy.
oh boy D:
aha!
sounds funny i know(:
i always do that anyway.
had cereal again,
then went to get changed,
and went to IMM.
ate lunch there,
homemade noodles:D
hahaha!
then walked around,
went daiso and got the file i wanted and caramel corn chips!
:D
hahaha.
yupps,
then went home after that.
hahah!
:D
alright,
shall talk about the movie now.
oh oh,
WARNING!
spoilers ahead for the movie enchanted:D
hahaha.

ahhhh well,
we went west mall to watch enchanted.
super funny,
nice and super romantic.
oh mannn:D
oh,
then barely 15mins into the show,
suddenly the screen blacked out!
D:
and we thought it was cos the giant guy sat ontop of the prince or something,
cos he was walking closer to the prince on the horse when it blacked out,
so everyone thought it was part of the movie but oh no..
cos the voices kept playing yet no picturesD:
waited like 10 mins before the movie started again.
and the whole theatre was pitch black!
and they only turned on the lights a few mins before everything was fixed.
fast forwarded to the giant part,
and when it came to the wishing well part,
IT HAPPENED AGAIN!
this time we were all making so much noise and some people were scolding vulgaritites when the screen was alright again.
wth!
D:
and we had to watch FROM THE START AGAIN.
D:
sighh.
oh well,
and i so love the movie!
i will give it five stars:D
out of five!
cant believe reviewers gave it a 3 only D:
its so so romantic.
its about this girl called giselle who thinks this prince is her true love but his mother's afraid she steals her throne,
so she comes up with a plan to throw her into reality.
its a super great movie with snow white,
cinderella,
belle and dont know who else all twisted in one movie.
super nice!
oh my,
then the wicked mother of the prince gives her a poisoned apple around 5 mins to midnight!
D:
oh my,
then the prince went to kiss her furiously cos she didnt wake up,
but in the end its the other guy who helped her when she was in the real world who was her true love,
cos when he kissed her she woke up.
oh my,
its a super romantic movie,
and funny too!
:D
i so wanna watch it AGAIN.
argh!
its super nice:D
and its super romantic cos in the end,
her true love is someone she never knew it was,
but she had a intuition,
and it was super painful to see her separated from him,
but that was before she was poisoned.
:D
oh my.
its nice.
GO SEE IT!
:D

alright,
end of spoilers:D
enchanted's nice.
a must-see:D
oh well,
IM GOING SHOPPING WITH CELINE THIS SATURDAY!
YAY!
:D
ahaha.
she's getting over a hundred:D
hope i get around there too.
so much stuff to buyyy:D
presents,
clothes for me!
bags,
shoe,
accessories,
etc:D
oh oh,
and birthday presents,
and christmas ones too:D
yay!
and i thought i will never be able to shop this year(:
yay!
CANT WAITTT:D
lol.
alright,
shall stop here:D
choir concert tmr!
D:
sighh.
toodles!

oh by the way,
i DIDNT pon choir or anything,
cos had something planned before the last min practice was announced so yeah:D
gonna shop and take pics on sat:D
less than 48 hours more!
:D

and now,
i wish i had a poisoned apple.
for all the reasons only i know,
and more of course.
how i wish i was so lucky,
as lucky as giselle:D

Labels: IM GOING SHOPPING SOON :D

alright,
quick one i guess:D
haha.
well,
finally finished packing for tomorrow!
in the end im going to sleep over my cousins house tomorrow till thurs instead of tues till thurs:D
haha!
major slepover:D
oh well,
anyway,
i practically ran around the house for an hour!
D:
oh well,
stupid things happened too.
ahhaha!
celine,
dont worry alright:D
haha.
you know what im talking about.
you'll be alright after awhile(:

anyway,
i may not be able to post for the next four days so forgive me alright:D
just really really hope choir doesnt add anymore extra practices!
cant go in that case:D
hmm,
oh yes.
and that choir wont make us meet up super early on fri!
dental at 8am is enough to kill me already D:
imagine if they asked us to meet at 12!
and go PLMGS by ourselves!
D:
i think i will have to go back,
sleep a while,
then pack everything and go there.
sighh.
oh well,
pray hard tomorrow miss lim's quite satisfied!
if not she will walk out on us.
sighh.
hope the guys buck up tomorrow! :D
ah,
and well,
pray hard i can go slovakiaaaaa.
i really want to go D:
oh and shopping this sat!
:D
i wanna go with celine(:
heh.
oh well,
i think i better get back to packing.
just to make sure everything's in:D
sighh.
gonna be super tired tomorrow D:
gonna walk around like some zombie i think.
:D
yepp,
gotta go check the stuff and sleep before 12!
feeling tired now.
argh:D
toodles everyone(:
shall miss you all while i go on my short short holiday:D

oh boy!
D:
memorised only half of rosas pandan:D
hehe.
better go sing till i fall asleep:D

Labels: around 7 more days :/, sleepovers :D

wow,
this is the 194th post:D
hahaha(:
just realised it when i went to my dashboard of blogger:D
anyway,
today deborah came online!
turned out she had a computer and internet access so i could talk to her!
:D
thank goodness for the internet.
(:
anyway,
today has been rather boring.
:D
woke up around 11,
which is unusual cos i usually wake up slightly later,
then immediately went to blog-hop and well,
do my usual things:D
ahha!
i have been changing alot of things of this blogskin,
i realised.
hope its for the better:D
argh(:
all i want to do now is play the drums!
hahaha:D
worried i might forget everything.
oh,
and go shopping!
one fine day before christmas i really must go shopping.
buy loads and loads of clothes,
nice shoes and accessories!
hahaa:D
now money's gonna be my best friend,
cos money can let me buy what i want!
and let me shoppp! :D
oh well,
i wish i can go some where else,
and i mean go other countries!
somewhere cheap.
:D
so i can really shop till i drop(:

oh,
and i super hope i can go slovakia next year.
it sounds super fun and the next opportunity i have to go with the choir will be 2 years after that,
which mean my parents might not allow on account of the 'O' s.
sighh!
oh well,
but it will be expensive cos if the 2900 doesnt cover all meals,
i have to fork out approx 10 a meal,
according to my sister?
which is only around 3-4 euros -.-
argh.
europe!
why so expensive D:
oh well,
pray hard i can go!
choir needs 15 more people!
oh,
and they are tying to get non-choir people to join us so we can train and go slovakia together and also compete in SYF.
hahah!
they want more guys.
i wonder if any one wil be interested in the first place,
even though choir's one of the best ccas in fmss!
:D
hahaha.
i really wanna go slovakia!
D:
sighh.
alright,
i shall end here.
and listening to music non stop for 3 hours hurts your ear physically D:
stupid earphones:D

Labels: around 8 days more :|

oh my,
i havent posted!
about today overall i mean:D

alright,
today that mrs onn(?) came to conduct us for the day
and she's way better than most conductors i guess.
she even did sectionals with the girls!
was a great help cos we got the basics of a longgggg song down pat?
in less than a week?
like,
only 3 days?
hahah!
alot more to improve on the the basics is the tunes and rythmn:D
sighh.
:D
anyway,
after that went home immediately,
and used the computer!
hahaha.
went a little high before choir too.
and i met ailin!
:D
ahaha.
my bestfrienddd:D
hmm,
and band's playing..
HSM songs.
eeyeeerrr!
"we'll all in this together...."
oh my
but it sounded good la.
hahhaa.
ailin plays the sexy sax!
LOL.
anyway,
i really miss my friends alot!
:D
heh.
no cell meeting tomorrow D:
hahaha!
and celine and i are gonna go crazy on sunday(:
alright,
i guess nothing much to blog about(:
hahha!
turns out the rosas pandan song is quite nice,
but i prefer pasigin 100x moreeeee:D
hahha!
i miss the rikas song:D
out of the four song's we're singing,
i like rikas the best!
hahah!
:D
super nice.
oh dangggg,
how i wish the sec ones could learn karimata(:
its a super nice and highhh song:D
haha!
alright,
getting too random(:
oh,
and im forced to say this:
the gays just disturbed me today D:
LOL.
oh well,
shall go wait for survivor to be on!
hahhaa!
thats todd's suck a backstabber ):
oh well,
shall try to post tomorrow(:
feel like doing some 'reply' to what deborah posted about the..
life of an ah lian thingy?
hahha!
im gonna make it a story:D
till then(:
toodles:D

Labels: close to 9 days till deborah's home :D

alright,
short post(:
hmm,
later i have choir on.
sigh.
have to go there myself D:
and today i didnt wake up on time to reply deborah's message!
D:
feel so bad.
my last bye to her was on msn and actually,
i didnt say bye at all.
oh well,
its only around 10 more days till deborah's back!
:D
haha.
oh well.
im feeling super bored now!
hahhaa.
i really make it sound like deborah's migrating,
really(:
hahaha!
and i've yet to find that stupid cable!
and i just realised it has been missing for like,
what,
2 plus months?
more than that.
ever since i shifted house D:
argh.
around an hour more before i go out and lunch's not yet ready.
hahah!
i wanna go out to eat on mondayyy:D
practice from 9-12!
12.30 actually
D:
forever draggggg(:
oh well,
where's my lunchhh?
D:
argh.
alright,
shall eat,
change and everything and go out!
:D
hahaha.
alright,
nothing else to blog le(:
toodles:D

Labels: 10 days to go D:

alright,
quick post:D
if i have the time i might edit it later and talk more about other stuff:D
ahha.
but first things first.
celine told me this year's highest PSLE score is 294!
oh my oh my D:
suddenly i feel super dumbb.
but anyway,
that girl's from GEP.
probably scored countless near-perfect scores:D
maybe even in the prelims?
haha(:
she might be the underdog though.
oh well.
two nine four!
thats freaking super whooper high!
D:
and this year in fmps the highest was 278,
according to my cousin.
super high!
i think probably highest ever in fmps' history?
:D
heh.
anyway,
seems like this batch is pretty smart:D
and they're getting smarter and smarter.
baddd):
oh well.
PSLE scores doesnt mean alot though.
cos in sec school no one expects to score near perfect for 'O's.
pretty impossible:D
anyway,
here's the link for you to read more:D

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/313096/1/.html

sighh!
i seriously feel like an idiot:D
oh well,
at least im doing pretty ok in sec school.
that matters more now.
and i believe there are cases where your the top psle student for your primary school or whole nation,
but in secondary school,
people can surpass you and top 'O's.
hahah!
but seems like all top scorers of their schools and nation go to RGSS
if they're girls:D
oh well.
so much hoo-ha about it,
now i feel like a super dumb girl:D
lol.

oh,
and and!

DEBORAH!

heh.
have to say moreeee:D
well,
hope you have fun on your trip yeah?
:D
hmm,
God bless you when your there and that he may keep you safe throughout!
yeah,
and i will be waiting for you to come back so we can go out!
:D
hahaha.
well,
yeah,
got loads more to say to you before you leave!
hahhaa!
oh yeah,
will miss you alot!
haha.
said that too many times.
alright,
hope you have fun and will let you know how we did on 30th alright?
go holidaying happy and miss everyone! :D
thanks for always going out with me too after choir!
:D
heh.
no more after-choir outings le,
but we shall wait till next year too:D
will let you know if i can go slovakia again alright?
God bless and im gonna miss you super much! :D

alright,
thats all for now:D
shall edit this later if i can use the computer:D
heh.
alrighty,
toodles(:

Labels: im seriously gonna miss deborah super much much D:

oh wait:D
got something for DEBORAH!

deborah!
awww,
your leaving in just two days time!
:D
hahhaa.
so sad i cant go choir with anyone already(:
anyway,
hope you have alot of fun at shanghai and enjoy your new boots! :D
hahaha.
hmm,
well,
will miss you super much when your away!
cant wait for you to come back.
ahaha.
sad you cant make it on the 30th.
so lucky you dont need to learn that new song!
D:
sighh.
alright,
cant wait for you to come back!
so sad you have dental tomorrow,
if not im definitely dragging you to vivo!
:d
or island creamery,
whichever you want(:
alright,
just letting you know i will miss you alot alot!
:D
hahaha.
no one to go choir and go home with for about 2 weeks!
D:
haaa.

alright,
this was actually from the post before before this:D
but it was right at the bottom so i was afraid she wouldnt see it:D
heh.
alright,
i posted three times today:D
heh.
so scroll down to readdd.
super long im warning you all(:
alright,
im not gonna post anymore.
really:D

Labels: im gonna miss deborah super much D:

*oh my, i know i look retarded, but its for fun alright!*

Labels: crazy cousins i have:D

alright,
shall post! :D
cupcakes baked yesterday didnt turn out as delish as the first time i baked:D
but it was still ok.
smelt chocolately,
but had a flat taste D:
oh well(:
today's aaron's birthday.
hahah,
and cos i finished baking around 1130,
so at midnight i wished him happy birthday:D
hahaha!
i always sleep at 2am everyday anyway:D
alright,
i promised to talk about the camp and now im going to.
but i think i lost 25% of the info le D:
but never mind!
:D

day two of class camp:

hmm,
alright.
so on the 2nd day all the girls woke up around 6.
we all couldnt sleep,
which i mean ada, sherrill, claudia, me and probably some boday else.
and we thought the guys were still sleeping,
turned out they all slept at 3am,
woke up around 5 to play taidi!
-.-
super addicted.
then someone said tianyang woke up earlier to play his DS.
super game addicts those people:D
too bad tianyang didnt bring cooking mama!
DDD:
anyway,
about 9 or even before that had devotion and breakfast and worship,
and aaron was obviously unprepared.
hahaha:D
then we had lunch,
which was mcchicken but i couldnt bite!
i was practically the last to finish everything.
D:
and finished super late too!
hahahha(:
oh well.
stupid braces(:
hmm,
later we had games,
which was pretty funny.
then the soapy dog and bone,
jerome wasnt listening to his number obviously,
cos by the time i returned 'home' with the soap,
he just stepped out to realise the soap wasnt there
hahahha!
then the stupid flour game
D:
aaron and sherrill i think pushed everyone into the flour!
but it was so so stupid:D
hahaha.
then water bomb was like,
boring.
but after that we headed back to the chalet,
and all the girls had like so many bags full of water bombs!
haha.
then vincent was super scared,
he used an umbrella to shield himself from all the water bombs.
lol.
then when one hit him he almost cried!
super big baby.
i dont like D:
hahahha!
yupps,
then later sherrill and ada hurriedly went to bathe then they two and vincent and aaron went to bedok to get the bbq stuff.
then later,
while they were out,
somebody went around touching phones.
super rude,
its totally an intrusion of privacy!
whatever,
then later i went over to get the guys to teach me taidi:D
then later xi yun came in, then we two, jerome and yi zhe played a super retarded game of ballooon volleyball
hahha.
it was super crap.
first game yi zhe and i won,
then next xi yun and jerome won.
then stupidly match point,
jerome practically slamdunked the balloon cos yi zhe hit it around the 'border'
then,
argh.
it was practically a fight between them both.
hahah!
so jerome and xi yun won
D:
super retarded la.
then later,
i went down with class comm and yi zhe to start the fire but it almost rained quite a bit.
thank God it drizzled!
D:
but the fire took super long to start.
hahaha.
then aaron kept making me drop margerine into the fire so smoke would come out.
hahaha!
then he and yi zhe can bbq everything until almost burnt:D
hahaha.
it was pretty fun la(:
the bbq i mean.
alot of stupid things happened too.
the guys couldnt tell us where the brush was,
but when sherrill and i went up to the girls bunk to see,
it was in the fridge!
D:
anyway,
we two brought the latte and mocca down for the girls to drink,
cos we were planning to do something at night so we needed somethign to keep us awake!
:D
but in the end,
latte didnt have any caffeine inside,
and i was practically the only one who drank the mocca D:
cos the day before aaron treated me and class comm to it,
so i was afraid it would spoil,
but it turned out to be a new can! D:
ah whatever,
then later the councillors came down from changi and after that,
we went with them to cheers to get lipstick and coloured rubberbands!
:D
haha.
then we went up,
slept early and well,
this is the fun part:D,
we woke up around 4 and snuck into the guy's room.
only sherrill, ada, claudia and i managed to wake up so we had to last min choose which guys to do.
so with the toothpaste,
i went to the bathroom mirror and started 'writing' while ada worked on ben chew with sherrill and claudia on SK i think(:
then later cos ben chew kept moving and the rest thought he woke up,
so they all ran into the bathroom and i got a shock.
hahah!
turned out ben chew was 'fighting' in his sleep:D
like some action movie(:
hmm,
later on while ada climbed on the bed where tian yang and yi zhe and aaron was,
yi zhe suddenly woke up and ada had to ask him to shut up and so he went back to sleep:D
hmm,
then ada didnt manage to finish writing on aaron's forehead cos his fringe was covering it,
so sherrill tried to lean over from the side of the bed and tie his hair,
but in his sleep he flattened it down,
but dont know when that he suddenly woke up,
asked what were we doing and went back to sleep.
hahah!
then we four kept running back to our room and back to their room cos some were moving alot,
we thought they were awake.
then later i think sherrill drew on tian yang,
and yi zhe was spared.
so lucky he woke up!
D:
anyway,
later we turned on the lights and forced them to go to the bathroom.
and aaron was the first,
and surprisingly his reaction wasnt as what we expected cos he simply washed his face while yi zhe gave the blur look and they both went back to the bed.
then claudia tried dragging SK's dog to the bathroom and SK followed like some snake!
LOL.
he's really attached to the dog.
hahaha!
he likes to carry it around:D
yupps,
then when we were doing all those,
xi yun woke up and watched what we were doing.
but no offence,
but everytime we had to run in and out,
she would be standing at the door and sometimes blocked the way,
but i guess she just wanted to watch and didnt realise we were trying to run away from the guys:D
haha.
yupp,
then in the morning,
we all woke up,
and packed(:
in the end the guys were up earlier too,
and dont know who was watching kids central!
oh yeah,
before we slept that night,
sherrill ada and i couldnt sleep and was feeling a little cold so we went over to play taidi and i think i almost fell asleep there but i guess it was the mocca
felt sleepy but didnt sleep anyway:D
hm,
anyway,
when we all packed our stuff,
we left the place to check out,
and then later the girls and the guys split up to eat brunch.
yupps,
then we girls went to mac's to eat while the guys went to the foodcourt i think:D
but xi yun had to go home early so yeah.
then after that ada, sherrill and i went home together and talk alot about someone on the train.
haah!
:D
oh well,
the camp was super fun(:
especially the prank!
hahaa(:
next time it might be whipped cream or something:D
heh.
oh well,
time to goooo:D
might post again later!
alright,
thats all(:
oh oh,
might upload photos later,
or tomorrow(:
toodles:D

oh oh,
i made some changes on the right column of my bloggg:D
haha.
hope it looks nicer.
took a stupid 45 mins to edit!
oh well,
cos i was experimenting on how i should present the links.
changed ideas 4 times!
D:
no wonder so long huh(:
alright,
enjoy:D

its so so amazing how a few messages exchanged can make me feel so much more positive there's a possibility.
i dont want to sound like im forcing you to do anything,
but if there's nothing else except today that can make you sound like the old you,
i rather buy 365 things rather then live without you sounding like your old self.
i miss the old you,
i miss all the great, fun times we had.
how i wish everything would go back to normal!
but its not possible,
and i know it all too well,
despite that candle being lited again,
the flame that gives me a positive side to know there's always a possibility in everything,
that its never possible,
maybe for the whole time i know you.
but i've known you for so long!
what else is there not to know?
oh,
who is the next one for you?
maybe.
oh my,
this is totally getting to me.
one day you tell me to give up,
the next you sound completely normal,
like your old self.
oh please,
someone,
tell me wth is going on! D:
im feeling super frustrated now.
how i wish i could just fly away to another country,
forget about you completely,
and fall for another.
oh my oh my,
im getting super frustrated.
im letting everything get to my headddd! D:
i just wish i had all the luck,
to be with you,
then everything will be fineeeee by now.
sighh.

Labels: super long post again:D

no time to post,
baking cupcakes again!:D
bye!

oh yeah,
nearly forgot(:
tag replies!
:D
super long since i replied any here(:
hate replying on the tagboard.
looks too messy:D

tag replies!

adelin- hello back(: hope you had fun on your holiday! (:

rebecca- haha, so what if you shared with me the ice-cream? i practically eat twice as much as you at macs ok! :D alright, maybe i didnt, but i ate ice-cream lots of times this month. with deborah and you guys! D: im growing super fat. you should see how much food and ice-cream i can eat! (: and i think 500ml for $8 is super worth. one pint of Ben and jerry's is like, $11.90? :D and one pint is 475ml i think(: LOL.

faye- hahaha. im fat. thats why im worrying. but i dont care anyway(: you only live once! i rather die fat then skinny(: cos your missing out all the good food. except for you this kind of people, eat so much still so skinny D: lucky DH! :D

alright,
shall post!
:D
tomorrow then have time to talk about class camp.
but i guess i forgot 20% or everything already,
so it may wind up not being long at all!
D:
whatever(:
anyway,
today!
:D
met deborah at mrt around 7.55am!
D:
then mrt-ed to dover,
and caught a bus to school.
turned out PA1 was occupied by the S2E people?
so we ended up at audi which was terrible D:
tenors were all late,
few basses turned up,
and today just pretty few came.
even i was shocked at the alto's attendance.
looked like quite few(:
then sops,
though alright in number but we really didnt sing that loudly either.
miss lim kept scolding basses today,
though i think its some particular loud guy from tenors' fault.
hahah!
super loud la,
when he sing.
can hear he's the one off,
not basses nor the rest of tenors!
D:
i really pity basses.
or maybe i cant tell off tune from on tune,
since sops always sing notes that are flat,
never sharp nor neutral:D
anyway,
after a super frustrating choir practice with a new song yet to be learned,
and with the concert only next week,
i was having a slight headache and felt super pissed.
why is the choir falling apart?
i even doubted the sec ones,
cos it seemed that once we joined in,
troubles started.
or was it because the sec 4s were too good?
they were the ones who brought in the gold with honours anyway.
basically.
but anyway,
after the most horrible choir practice for me,
deborah, faye, chin wei and i took 166 and went vivo!
it was drizzling when we got there,
so we decided to buy some fries and snacks then later bring it up to the pool since me and deborah played in the rain before anyway(:
but while at carls jr,
the rain just poured and we were stuck indoors.
even after staying in carls jr for almost 45mins,
it barely stopped.
so we all walked around,
and later deborah went to buy her percy pig at M&S(:
hoho.
it was super hard!
D:
i had to rip the pig face apart to eat it D:
hahaha.
felt super mean ):
anyway,
we later decided to go play and take pictures at toys'rus!
:D
had super loads of fun there.
took pictures with the rose someone still owes me :DD
and a super huge $50 teddy bear!
now i want that one for my birthday(:
haha,
nah,
its wayy to expensive:D
yupps,
then took retarded pictures too,
but its super few compared to the total number of pictures we took today!
in fact,
its not we purposely act retarded,
but i myself look retarded.
super hate my fringe.
argh.
wish my hair is much more obedient! :D
then took pictures with a super fat patrick and skinny spongebob,
and also elmo and a dog and another small teddybear!
:D
and barneyyy!
:D
the huge purple dinosaur(:
and deborah and i took a few pictures with some disneygirls poster.
hahaha.
super super childish.
:D
and faye kept taking pictures with barbies and putting a loser sign on their heads D:
hahaha!
then when we had enough fun cos the store people were moving around,
probably preventing anyone from playing with the toys,
we went out to see if it was still raining and we saw some girl going up the stairs slowly,
and the stairs was outdoors! :D
so we immediately rushed up,
and after deborah hesitated for a few mins,
we stepped into the water and immediately took pictures(:
hahaha!
super funny.
we tried to use our feet to make a heart but it was so hard to twist cos we were afraid we might drop our phones in the water or we ourselves drop in:D
then took a few pictures that had us sticking out of each other(:
not sure how to explain though:D
shall let the pictures speak for itself later or tomorrow(:
yupps,
then we walked back to some dry spot to dry our feet
went into the toilet and decided to take some reflections:D
hahhaa!
took quite a few,
then headed to candy empire where deborah bought something again while chin wei went to get her chilli cheese fries from superdog!
but carls' ones are nicer.
they have beef inside too:D
hmm,
then later we all went back together!
:D
today was super duper fun,
and never had so much fun since holidays started.
besides with deborah,
of course(:
but today really helped me forget about the whole what is happening and why is everything going wrong thing,
and let me have fun.
i throughly enjoyed every single bit and i wanna thank deborah, faye and chin wei for today!
deborah- for all the times you accompanied me to choir and all the fun we had ever since choir practices started for the holidays! really appreciate the crazy times too:D

faye- for you and your senseless dickhead and boobhead jokes. they never fail to make me want to laugh! and hit you while im laughing too:D and thanks for all the doodling on my choir file though i always erase them away cos i like mine better:D

chin wei- for just being that good friend that is always with me during choir besides faye! and also asking how i was when i had a headache today:D thanks!

hahah,
i think i suddenly become physco.
hahah!
suddenly i thanked some people.
:D
i think very soon if i relaly go madddd im going to start thanking the whole of 1e 2007.
to be really honest,
i miss the class super much.
D:
wish we were not separated,
but i guess its goodbye to those going 2d next year(:
still love 1e(:
alright,
i think im really going crazy.
it might be today's whole fun day,
or it might be this whole why dont i have all the luck to have what i want thing that got to my head too much D:
sighh!
and i guess i must go reflect on what miss lim said.
the girls are good,
almost gold standard,
but once one section drops,
the whole choir drops.
the pressure and stress is super lot now.
dont know how am i going to handle the whole concert thing and the other issue D:
argh!
if only everyday could be like today.
fun,
super retarded,
and so easy to forget about the people you tried so hard to forget but cant.
D:
im getting so so tired out by the whole forgetting you thing.
D:
i know the post's getting too lenghty,
so shall stop here.
heroes later!
ahaha.
must watch the jap guy.
he's so chubby and cuteeee!
even ada likes him toooo:D
i rather watch him all day then play taidi or pig(:

Labels: super fun day :D

sigh.
i really wish things wil turn out all like what i want.
but i know its impossible.
oh whatever.

anyway,
im feeling super tired now.
had a headache while in the car just now and while i was sleeping
SOME STUPID GUY CUT INTO MY DADS LANE AND HE BRAKED!
D:
while i was sleeping.
after that had a worst headache.
arghh!
lsfjd;lanset;algnmlskng.
ahhaha.
super high now(:
lol.
tomorrow choir at 845!
crazy one la:D
oh well,
later its to vivo with deborah!
gonna go highhhh on photos(:
so after she leaves i still can remember her.
LOL.
im super talking crap.
this is bad D:
alright,
off to sleep now,
or maybe america's got talent(:
toodles!

do you need a swinging pig?
well,
i've alot to say to you.
maybe tomorrow.

argh,
i just realised i said i will update today about the camp D:
it was cos i thought today would be saturday.
just cos i was wearing school uni so i thought it was a friday!
D:
alright,
today's sunday.
for sure(:
hoho.
but no time to post about the camp!
:D
so shall do it tomorrow.
no wait,
there's still practice tomorrow!
D:
arghh.
!!
9-12!
D:
argh.
alright,
shall try to talk about the camp either tomorrow or tuesday alright?
lol.
i feel like i owe the loansharks a big debt or something(:
alright,
im going out now!
:D
oh boy,
feeling super hungry D:
ate so much for lunch too(:
Auf Wiedersehen :D
whatever it is,
even if its wrong(:

i need to know everything.
alright,
i know i sound demanding,
but..
im really lost after trying to give up.
im super lost,
super confused,
and feeling super empty.
i just wish i had all the luck.

i know i didnt post about the class camp!
D:
so sorry.
haha!
super tired and no mood(:
but i shall blog about today first:D

today woke up around 530,
then met deborah at the mrt at 6.30 and her dad fetched me:D
reache HCI around 6.45,
then waited for awhile and decided to go in after awhile:D
went to the canteen,
and later on had warms ups.
Mr tham made us do stretching and twisting.
and i was super shocked that he could bend down his back parallel to the floor!
super scary.
and no matter where he twists,
he's back is basically straight.
eeeyeeerrr!
super scary.
and he could twist 90 degrees!
D:
super flexible!
haha.
later proceeded up to classrooms to practice.
ACS(i) and NJC were in te classrooms on both sides of ours.
NJC sang super loud!
Oh no wait,
its Hwa Chong themselves:D
i think.
whatever it is,
they sang super loud!
:D
even when Mr Tham tried shouting you could still hear them
haha.
so later we entered in the auditorium,
and its super huge!
reminds me of those super huge lecture theatres:D
yupps,
then all the schools before us did pretty great,
and later after the 6th school sang,
we had a break.
so deborah, minxian, yee wei, faye, chin wei, rebecca and i went to refill water and go to the washroom.
but earlier on at the level above,
the girls toilet was on the left.
so,
the blur me thought they were all the same on all levels and i dragged rebecca to the left!
then rebecca dragged me back but i didnt get it so i walked a few more steps to the toilet on the left before everyone(our 'gang') shouted at me
michelle!
its the guys toilet!
where are you going?
super super paiseh!
D:
argh.
even the cleaning lady there laughed so hard:D
but i admit it was super funny.
so i let rebecca pull me into the correct toilet.
argh,
super super super malu! :D
lol.
then later,
we sat down again and when nanyang girls performed,
i already felt my stomach jumping!
then when we walked upstage later i calmed down abit.
pasigin,
sops rushed alittle.
but generally better than what we expected:D
could hear people fumbling over the words though.
but when it was time for rikas,
my whole leg was shaking and my stomach was like some washing machine.
LOL.
super scary.
then we did quite great in the first part.
but when it came to the part we had to scream and the basses recite something,
the managed a 'ka'something something then they stopped.
oh my,
suddenly it seemed like the world just stopped,
and everyone froze.
then a few people in the audience giggled and our choir giggled alittle too,
but not everyone.
then i could tell mr tham was a little disappointed when they stopped,
but he still laughed over it and asked them to continue.
overall,
its was good,
but later on at judging the china guy said we could have made it more humourous
as in he thought the song was supposed to be humourous but we didnt make it funny enough.
that was the worst comment ever!
D:
i mean,
to have your song mistaken for another feeling.
argh.
i almost felt like giving up.
like deborah and the others who were stunned too.
but well,
if there had been a top bottom,
we would be sure to be there,
but i guess miss lim was in a good mood too.
someone said she raised her hands over her head to clap for us!
probably she felt we did so much better than when she last saw us.
but whatever it is,
to know that she was kind of happy to clap like that though she did for a few schools,
it was a form of encouragement to me already.
oh well,
later we all walked to serene centre after realising it was a walkable distance!
spent $5 at mac thanks to rebecca D:
haha.
joking(:
then went island creamery,
took a few pictures,
then ate reversO and cookies and cream with rebecca cos i didnt want to spend too much:D
then took a few more pics before walking to catch 74,
which we all had to run after for!
too bad minxian couldnt go.
i believe it would have been a little more lively.
and yee wei, rebecca and i threw fries outside to the birds!
and they hung around waiting for more:D
hahha!
then bus-ed back to dover MRT,
talked about some choir people along the way,
and just nwo me and deborah made a discovery!
hoho(:
oh,
and i'll miss deborah super lot when she goes china!
D:
no one to go choir with from 23rd onwards!
sigh D:
hope she has fun there though!
will miss you super much deborah!
oh yeah,
get green and red alright?
on 22nd:D
i wanna be a walking christmas tree!
or i might get green yellow red:D
traffic lights!
super cool:D
LOL.
alright,
i admit,
im lazy to blog about class camp day two and three.
but i promise i will by sunday!
i know i broke 2 promises already,
or even more,
but i know this post has been suer long and im scared it'll burn your eyes,
not to mention mine!
:D
alright,
shall stop here(:
have to paste those stickers on my textbooks:D
those name thingies my mum printed so i can stick them on the textbooks(:
better do it before she comes back.
ahaha.
and millsberry is getting boring!
i wish 10 million would just suddenly appear in my bank account
then it will be more fun buying furniture:D
alright,
toodles!
(:
oh,
and my hair's growing out super fast.
dont know why!
D:
hate it.
looks like gotta but around my birthday.
eeyeerr!
birthday surprise a haircut.
yucks.
i rather just that flower alone for my birthday.
super contented already.
cos its not the present that counts,
its the thought and the giver,
isint it?
:D

oh man,
should i just put green and red or traffic light colours?
he might scold me for putting the 'same' colours twice in a row
heh(:
this is getting too lenghty! D:
bad bad(:
alright,
off to stick those stickers(:
Auf Wiedersehen:D
=goodbye in german!
hahaha.
i just remembered what heidi klum always says(:
wonder if its the correct one.
whatever.
Auf Wiedersehen(:

*sorry for any typo errors! super tired to change(:

oh my crap.
im getting super lazy to blog D:
sigh!
tomorrow choir competition.
hope we dont get top bottom:D
heh.
island creamery tomorrow!
cant wait.
hope its with minxian, yeewei, chin wei and faye!
hahhaa.
the super crazy bunch.
oh,
and rebecca too!
:D
lol.
oh well,
i WILL update tomorrow alright?
D:
i mean about the camp.
im slowly forgetting every single detail and its no good.
oh by the way,
the cupcakes i baked are super delish!
(:
should i bring a few tomorrow for thoe crazy bunch?
haha.
it has hardened quite a bit though,
so not so nice as when its freshly baked(:
oh well,
im going to zoom off to the teeveee!
last episode of ghost whisperer(:
hope i dont miss alot of it now that its almost 10.10(:
toodles people.
pray for the choir tomorrow alrighty:D
heheh!

oh dear oh dear,
just as i was about to make the whole thing totally platonic,
the whole thing had to come along.
and now its super hard to let go.
those memories,
made me want to hold on more and more,
till forever.
oh boy,
this is bad.
super bad.
just by being at arm's distance away from you for three days,
it made me think why did i want to try to let you go in the first place.
i can never forget what happened on the second night,
cos it was the best night ever.
though it wasnt expected,
but it meant so much to me,
and gave me a glimmer of hope.
i know its not possible,
maybe not possible forever,
but that night,
everything seemed so so possible.
oh crap,
one day everything fell apart,
the next day everything seemed to fall back into place.
and it has stayed there till now.
oh boy oh boy,
its so much harder to let go now.
so much harder...

and im gonna wait for the day that rose comes personally from you..
cos im prepared to wait for a very very very long time...

argh!

no time to post all about day two,

so shall do day two and three tmr alright?:D

anyway,

just a shoutout to those little miss _______ shirt fans,

i can help you guys get those shirts for around $12.

so if your interested,

email me @ freakyshootingstar@gmail.com

more details later on alright?

its just to see how many are interested:D

alright,

gotta go! :D

IM BACK!:D
haha,
had the most fun camp so far!
hahhaa.
super lot of things about it,
so i decided to post one day at a time for three days.
like today,
i will post about day one,
tomorrow about day two and friday about day three!
hahha:D
it might be super long for day two,
so dont burn your eyes tomorrow alright?:D
miss the house so much!
as in,
the computer,
my bed(:
heh.
alright,
shall get down to the camp:D

day one,

after choir finished at 3.15,
deborah and i decided it was too late to go island creamery,
so we went straight back.
then,
after saying bye to deborah,
i speed walked back,
hurriedly throw the other stuff inside my crumpler after clearing my choir file out,
then went to bathe,
did a last minute check and dashed out of the house.
ahahah!
missed the train so ad to wait a little while.
and meanwhile,
i messaged aaron to let him know i was coming,
so he could decided if he wanted to get someone to fetch me to the chalet or i go by myself.
took the train,
was super long,
and stood the whole journey!
super relieved to even put down the bag for 2 mins:D
hoho.
finally reached pasir ris and sms aaron again,
then decide decide until i had to go there myself D:
argh.
super tired already.
reached downtown east (D.E)
then couldnt find my way to the chalet,
kind of got lost!
D:
argh.
my sense of direction really disappears after not going there for almost a year
so,
sherrill, ada and aaron had to come find me,
but at the same time when they were finding me,
i realised i saw one of the water slides at wild wild wet where i was told to walk to.
super fed up!
ahaha.
then on the way went to cheers,
bought drinks.
then went to the chalet,
had my dinner then the guys were playing tai di,
so sherrill went over to play too.
i went to watch,
hoping i could remember how to play,
but was still super blur.
i think the last time i played tai di was around,
p5?
thats quite long D:
lol.
anyway,
after that had devotion after everyone bathed,
but the guys didnt want to bathe
haha!
stinky.
anyway,
we were arguing about what songs to sing for worship.
but anyway,
we had free time after that.
so we played abit,
played pig which everyone had a good laugh,
especially the stinky guys!
:D
hoho.
yupps,
then later sherrill and ada had to go for class com meeting after the 9 o'clock show,
and claudia and gang went to walk,
so left xi yun and me.
yupps,
then didnt do much.
but something happened la.
cos someone went around touching stuff that is not theirs.
wont start anythign here.
then later on sherrill came up with an idea to play a prank on the guys when they're sleeping!
:D
ahah.
then at night we all couldnt sleep cos sherrill and ada drank mocca coffee and they were talking loudly,
it was a little hard to sleep thinking about the prank.
but we decided to do it on the second night so the boys wont have a chance to get back at us!
:D
aha.
yepp,
then we all slowly fell asleep but the guys only slept a few hours then woke up to play tai di.
and cos of tian yang who was addicted to his DS,
when everyone sleeping he went to on the light in the guys room just to play DS.
hoho.
super inconsiderate!
D:
yupps,
thats all!
day one(:
oh yeah,
we girls had a separate room from the guys.
just that they were ajoining rooms so there's that joining door:D
yupps,
time to play something.
getting abit tired to blog more.
day two tomorrow!
:D

oh!
and ada said it looked like my teeth were moving.
actually is the hole recovering!
i dont know anyway:D
hope its moving(:
all the better! cos if separators can move your teeth in a week,
how about braces in three weeks?(:

Labels: day one of class camp

alright,
shall post before going to camp tomorrow!
:D
class camp.
hoho:D
had a certainly not easy time packing,
cos the last time i packed for such a camp was last year dec!
LOL.
yupps,
but i managed to stuff the sleeping bag in the fila bag!
hoho:D
looks real bulky now.
luckily its pretty light!
sighh.
nothing to hug for two nights!
haha(:
lazy to bring anything along.
hmm,
tomorrow's choir is super early!
sighh.
i dont think im realy ready for the pasigin song
argh.
the second verse just cant get through!
but i basically know the tue and most of the words so its alright.
i just keep messing up the order of verses and everything!
D:
better start memorising:D

well,
i cant really say im excited about the camp.
i am,
but not alot.
haha(:
thinking all the bad stuff might happen.
and i dunno what are they either!
:D
sheesh.
i have such a bad mind D:
hahah!
oh well,
i think i better go offline earlier(:
maybe sleeping latest at 12:D
have to wake up around 7.15!
argh D:
beats waking up at 6 on a normal school day(:
ahaha.
and going to meet deborah at..
815!
D:
going for ice cream after choir!
then i have to rush back home,
take a super fast shower,
pack and run out of the house!
in 30 mins flat!
or even 15 D:
but i bathe super slow de.
ahah!
hopefully i reach pasir ris around..
5.30?
:D
ride from redhill to pasir ris takes about 45 mins,
50mins plus waiting time i guess.
so..
working backwards..
i have to get out of the house by..
4.30
latest.
:O
omg,
thats so so rush!
:D
heh.
oh well,
my fault the ice cream is tempting me again
ahah!

sighh,
really nervous about tomorrow!
time constraint,
and everything!
:D
sighh,
hope the nice people are staying over(:
sheesh.
hope its super fun(:
oh well,
better go!
havent read the newspaper,
packed bag for choir tomorrow and get money!
:D
heh.
island creamery,
here i come again!
LOL(:
alright alright,
should stop right now now now!
hopefully miss lim is satisfied with our practice tmr.
and hopefully God gives me super memory to remember the words and the order!
the rikamies song is just so easy-peasy:D
especially the screaming part!
super fun:D
alright,
im gonna stop right here.
toodles! :D
gonna miss everyone for three days!
and of course,
the computer!

argh,
i wish my mum and my sister could look more positively at the idea of getting me new flip flops.
its not like i can stay there for three days with either an expensive slipper or a too-big-for-me slipper D:
this sucks!
flip flops on the wishlist(:

Labels: camp camp camp

i cut my hair!
and now i have bangs:D
hahah!
anyway,
now i love my hair even more.
cos you can see two distinct layers at the back:D
haha.
the previous time the auntie didnt layer alot,
so not much difference.
but the bad thing now is that she cut it much shorter and now my hair is curling everywhere!
the left side is curling outwards,
the right side is curling..
well..
half out half in.
ahhaa:D
anyway,
yesterday made up with my dad!
hahah:D
he ah,
super petty.
take one week to say sorry:D
heh.
and he made me cook the omelette for him:D
ahha.
had it for dinner today.
he had his ytd night(:
anyway,
i know why i cant go slovakia le.
cos around the same time,
we might be going canada!
:D
haha,
cant wait!
if not we have to wait till dec to go D:
haha!
i wanna see snow
):
lol.
anyway,
its super hard to pack for the class camp.
sighh.
i only packed in shorts and shirts.
D:
and im afraid i dont have enough shorts.
and all my shirts are school related D:
primary and secondary!
hahaha:D
all the better(:
thats what those shirts are given out for:D
yupps,
and i earned another 10k in millsberry!
haha.
its so kiddish yet i like it so so much:D
love their clothes and furniture!
ahaha.
my own home:D
hoho.
and i think i might get new flip flops tmr!
:D
argh.
in a year,
my feet has grown almost 4 slipper sizes.
i mean ripples:D
cos the one i have now is way too just nice,
size 5.
i went to try on on thurs,
size 9 was just a little bit big for me
argh!
D:
lol.

hmm,
its really time i go shopping.
but i've been spending alot of money this month.
keep asking my mum for money.
oh and,
my piggy bank has NOTHING.
only a few coins that hardly amount to 2 bucks D:
now you know how poor am i.
D:
sigh!
can my hair stop curling everywhere?
D:
LOL.
oh well,
i really suck at packing stuff D:
i've been like,
'leafing' through my wardrobe for 20 mins and all i pulled out was the shorts and shirts
D:
argh.
hate my wardrobe!
(:
alright,
shall talk abit about thursday(:

well,
me and my sister took the train to simei thanks to my dad who tried to ferry 7 people in his vios?
well,
then we stopped by to buy bubble tea at simei and the chocolate oreo was only 1.50!
:O
fifty cents cheaper!
lol.
then we took a super long walk till we reached the place.
had lunch there with all my dad's side of the family as usual.
then later went out with my cousin!
:D
hahaha.
found her a top(:
then we took neoprints!
haha,
i love her:D
going to her house to stayover!
:D
3D2N
sighh.
another one to pack.
but that one's easier.
i can wear nice or casual stuff:D
lol.
yupps,
that was basically all.
oh,
and then mrt-ed to bedok,
where my aunt and sis fetched me:D
she got a new car again!
argh,
BMW!
D:
so rich.
lol.
then i played with the two dogs and suddenly,
the super well-behaved one turned aggressive and fought with the other dog over a bone
D:
dogs:D
hmm,
then had dinner,
fooled with my sister's laptop's camera,
and then went home around 9.30:D
had so much fun that day!
:D
alright,
i guess i shall get back to millsberry-ing!
time to earn more MB!
:D
toodles!(:

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it

I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm so over it....
I'm over it....

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

know what?
i wish i could be over you.
never to see you again,
if it was ever true.
but its really hard,
but i will try till i am happy that i finally got over you.
but for now,
its so so hard.
i doubt in the next year plus,
i can be completely over you.
but im gonna try my best if what you want is to make me get over you.
maybe your really nto worth waiting for years.
but i have been for so long already.
on one hand it seems so hard to give up after so long,
yet on the other hand others feel your not worth it.
oh boy,
this is driving me insane.

Labels: :D

today choir was really good.
miss lim though scolded us abit,
but she commented we were better than the previous practice on monday:D
and mr tham was super funny!
hahha(:
i really like the rikasmies song.
the screaming part was super funny,
as well as the speaking part!
:D
hahhaa.
then the pasigin song was like,
better,
but the basses got their notes wrong cos the keyboard they used turned out to have the wrong sound:D
hahah!
poor them(:
then the tenors were like,
better.
but i could hear one of them singing totally off-harmony.
he was the one contributing to the split note la.
i wont mention who:D
hahha.
yeah,
overall today's practice was fun!
and we learnt the screaming part,
the whole song really comes to gether,
you can hear.
just that when we scream,
got some guys purposely anyhow scream,
but anyway,
the basses have to read some words,
so i wonder how can they be heard:D
hoho.
oh well,
i shall go look for that pasigin song on youtube!
deborah said that choir was super good:D
heh.
now i like both songs,
but i like the rikamies one more(:
hahah!

oh anyway,
im trying my best to get over everything.
both family problems and what he said to me.
sighh.
hopefully,
everything turns out to be a bad dream.
but i know it isint.
sighh.

tmr hopefully i can cut my hair!
im starting to like my fringe when it was first cut short.
heh:D
but i dont like too short hair.
my hair would just curl everywhere.
yuck:D
hate it when it happens:D
haha!
anyway,
today was fun,
and after choir too!
we had to run for 74:D
cos of minxian!
hahaha(:
everyone's so nice:D
toodles! :D

i just cried again.
wth.
this is getting outrageous.
what the hell is wrong with my dad!
he's just being freaking petty can.
not only to me,
but to my mum and my sister too alright.
he's just acting like a total physcopath however you spell it.

i woke up this morning and grabbed my phone off the table,
just to see if my mum remembered to gimme money to top up my ez-link
and not only did i not see that,
i saw the consent form for the overseas trip for choir.
i totally forgot about it,
so i went to see it.
and turned out i wasnt allowed.
and my mum left me a note there,
saying will tell me why i cant go later.
then i noticed it was my dad who signed it.
hello?
in his petty state now,
my dad wouldnt have agreeded just cos i made him angry over wanting to go church by myself and not letting him fetch me there.
and well,
my dad told me in my face the minute he saw the letter.
he was like,
im NOT going to let HER go.
no questions asked,
no go.
obviously i didnt care then cos he was just being petty.
but now,
him being petty over that whole i-dont-want-to-be-fetched-to-church,
and then being angry about it for a week now,
doesnt help in any situation.
obviously there's no reason why i cant go.
the only reason is that HE'S PETTY AND UNREASONABLE TO LET ANYONE GO ANYWHERE.
thats all.
obviously i would break down.
i cannot take it any longer.
what kind of parent is this?
unsupportive in any way when he's angry?
its not fair.
he always thinks he's right,
he always think he's fair.
he always wanna have his own way.
what the hell is his problem?
im just super angry at him now.
super.
in fact,
if he would have let me go,
i would just take whatever money i can to convert to euros,
and then stay there as long as i can even after the 9 days are over.
he's just freaking unreasonable and i dont wanna live with him anymore.
he also made everyone pissed at him.
he drank up a whole huge bottle of vodka which my sister wanted to try abit yet he claimed is his so he can drink all.
and dont know what he did to my mum,
always using her as a threat saying if he says no to the trip,
he wont allow my mum to let me go either cos he makes the final decision.
if thats not unreasonable,
tell me what is.

i know a few people got worse parents than me,
but can you imagine having a dad who doesnt even treat you like a daughter and practically gets angry at you for EVERYTHING he deems WRONG?
he gets angry at something,
then from then on whatever you do he says its WRONG and SCOLDS you like no one's business.
doesnt he even have a conscience?
i dont even wanna scold him already.
all i wanna do is just list down everything he has done to me over these FIVE days.
if he wants to be unreasonable and unforgiving,
go ahead.
cos one fine day if i cant take it anymore,
i will just shift out.
its not me getting thrown out by you,
but you can say its me abandoning you,
not the other way around.
you want me to become like you,
petty and unreasonable,
forget it.
i will NEVER follow such a horrible 'role model'

anyway,
thanks for those who cheered me up.
though it didnt really help as in you couldnt stop all those horrible stuff coming,
but i really appreciated it.
thanks celine,
which you did alot to try to understand what was going on,
sarah who also cheered me up quite a bit,
though i know it wont end soon,
adelin who led me to a psalm to leave things to God,
and many many more others who tried cheering me up one way or another
really thank you all so much.
sometimes i feel i rather have my friends for a family rather than have this family.
they really cheer you up when your down,
and feeling helpless.
thanks so much,
and sorry if i made some worry for awhile alright.
i think i shall stop here.
im feeling bad enough as it is.
i think im getting a horrible headache.
dont feel like going to choir so i can never pass that form up.

everything's going so wrong.
super wrong.
why do you want to change?
for yourself?
no one would believe.
i dotn even believe its you.
i dont at all.
its not that i cant take rejection,
but i never knew you were that..
i dont know.
i just saw a side of you i didnt know.
at all.
i dont even think its you.
i dont.
but,
im gonna try to get over you.
i will.
unless its not you then i wont make an effort to.
though it was just some message,
it doesnt really make any sense.
if your so scared to tell me in my face,
then dont at all.
now you say its another girl your changing for.
no one expects you to change.
even for yourself.
it just doesnt help that i've known you for so long,
and that im smart enough to have a hunch its not you.
its not you who sent it.
whatever and whoever it is,
i just hope that nothin will go wrong with our friendship.
i really want to get over you,
but its even harder to now.
and if it wasnt you who sent that,
i hope the person who sent that just gets their heart broken too.
you just dont know how much it hurt me.
it just hurt me so much i dont wanna ever talk to anyone now.
i dont need pity,
i just need a face to face thing.
i dont want messages,
i dont want to pretend im happy.
i just want to know it from you personally.

argh,
i dont know what im typing.
now ontop of the parent thing,
i have this horrible thing going on.
what the hell is going on?
i dont think i can trust anyone anymore.
nothing in my life is going right.
there's no point now.
i want all these to end.
in fact,
i feel like going to slovakia and never to come back.
yes,
its that bad.
im not trying to gain any pity,
i just need someone to hold onto and an understanding family.
but how?
no one understands me.
not even my best friend cares i think.
i dont know why is all these happening to me.
i really want to stop all these right now.
i dont know what i did to deserve all these.
i know God has planned everything for me,
but i never felt so so bad before.
i think im gonna break down.
i cant blog any more.
im really at a loss of words now.
bad things come after one another.
i wish i never ever knew you.
i wish i was never your classmate for so long.
i cant take this suffering anymore.
i just need to find shelter and comfort from all these sufferings.
why the hell is all these happening to me?

im just super pissed at my dad.
he's just so,
argh.
just cos of everything,
i cried so much last night.
how he didnt make an effort to understand me,
how he doesnt even care what i think.
i just kept crying last night.
forget it,
i dont wanna talk about it.
its just making me more angry.
he's angry at me,
so what?
he thinks im not angry at him?
he everything also expect me to listen.
whatever la.

anyway,
later im going with deborah to someplace!
:D
heh.
alright,
we're going island creamery(:
to try their nice(?) ice-creams.
pretty cheap too:D
haha.
the next ben and jerry's for us!
maybe(:
lol.
anyway,
i have to go change and everything now:D
leaving around 20 mins time.
cant wait for choir to be overrrr! :D
toodles!
i cant post at night anyway,
so might as well post now.
all thans\ks to my DAD again.
its affecting the way i think about him now.
D:
argh!
i think im going to start crying again.
sighh.

Labels: updated the other blog:D

sighh(:
today super boring.
slept till 11 plus cos i slept at two last night!
not really late,
considering i slept at five before(:
hahah!
anyway,
spent a little time trying to trash unwanted worksheets and pack a bit of my table and drawers.
haha:D
and,
meddled abit with this blog's template.
and i screwed it!
all the posts that you see now shifted to the right.
ovelapping my other stuff on the right column:D
should have taken a screenshot of it!
:D
hahah.
maybe i can make it happen again,
since i know exactly what happened!
:D
i mean,
i know what went wrong:D
haha!
anyway,
tomorrow probably eating lunch with deborah.
provided i have the money!
haha
and we're going some twitty place(:
but for the food,
not for the people(:
and i decided tmr if its super fun and we're high we shall take loads of pictures!
:D
hehe.
oh well,
hopefully we know where to drop off(:
cant wait!
deborah's really fun to go out with(:
she's so cute:D
ahhaha.
well,
then was looking at friendster and saw something that made my heart stop for a few moments.
lets just say its a sad thing for me,
not happy.
yeah,
and i have been trying to tell myself to stop thinking about it.
but it just appears in my mind everytime i come across friendster.
arghh.
forget it,
im not going to elaborate further.

anyway,
i've been thinking of what to get for my sister's birthday:D
yesterday walked into crumpler upon seeing the laptop bags.
$84!
D:
15inch.
argh.
where am i going to get that kind of money?
but like deborah said,
it doesnt have to be crumpler.
well,
true,
but its super hard to find a nice laptop bag.
oh well,
shall put it off for the time being(:

sighh.
my dad simply doesnt wanna talk or discuss about the slovakia trip D:
like.
cos that time i made him angry over one small thing he says nothing to discuss about cos its a no.
what the??
he's freaking petty and i cant stand it.
everything i do he picks at it.
finds fault.
it just seems like my opinions doesnt even matter to him.
its just so,
freaking frustrating!
its so irritating la.
imagine everythin you do your dad or mum finds fault with it.
everything.
no wonder i always answer back.
its because i cannot stand this anymore.
its just not fair.
why others have nicer parents who take time to understand their kids?
and mine are just those kind who says whatever i see is whatever you are inside.
and i have no one to turn to if i have any problems.
its just super horrible.
argh.
all cos of the trip.
im super frustrated.
and i dont wanna blog anymore.
this is getting so idiotic.
more tomorrow.
toodles.

im back!
:D
heh.
anyway,
today choir was super horrible.
guys didnt do well,
girls weren't prepared,
though we did slightly better? :D
hmm,
whatever la.
now got two extra practices.
sighh.
competition just next week!
haha(:
and,
we may go to slovakia next year!
:D
yay!
pretty cheap for a 9 day trip too:D
then after choir,
me and deborah went to find kate,
then i went to find ailin and saw both carissa(s)
:D
hahah!
then we went to orchard,
but took bus to dover cos of ailin!
sighh.
then went there,
shared the bento set,
octopus balls,
and bought doughnuts!
:D
then taka was getting boring so we walked out to go city hall for ben and jerry's!
heh(:
a bit sick of it now.
three times in less than a month!
:D
haha.
luckily din go vivo b&j :D
haha(:
if not sure bump into some people(:
haha.
not that i dont like them,
but it might seem weird
ahahah!
yupps,
then we went marks and spencers to get deborah's pigs,
then we went home!
today was super fun!
:D
haha.
alright,
time to gooooo(:
and carissa chang,
hope your feeling alright ok?
dont brood over it,
instead,
bake me a cake!
:D
heh.
toodles(:

i promised myself im not gonna think about you anymore.
i've decided to try to forget about all these years.
hopefully its not impossible,
but i dont wanna let go either.
i just have no choice cos i know i will never get a chance to say what i want.
so what's the point?

alright,
not much time to update so shall just reply tags(:

tag replies!

sarah-ann- aha, now after blowing 12k on furniture, im no longer rich:D haha. your house is super nice!

DH faye- lol, it is a little kiddish, but its fun! ahah. diner dash can be a little tiring after awhile(:

deborah- hahaha, good idea:D i have club penguin!(: heh. im such a kid(:

alright,
thats all(:
NO emo talk today.
nothing 'provoked' me to do so anyway.
so far,
it has been pretty alright(:
toodles!

arghhh!
i hate living on the 2nd floor!
just suddenly,
something will just crawl into your house.
or rather,
now my room!
D:
stupid ants.
hahha!
so tinyyyyy,
its so so hard to kill them.
hoho(:
they are pissing me off so much D:
hmphh.
anyway,
today after tuition went to church to help out with youth camp stuff:D
haha.
we were painting those cloth thingys with logos
for the camp groups.
haha.
let's just say it was super tiring:D
but we got a drink treat from one of the guys:D
so it was pretty ok:D
then had youthphoria(:
haha.
miss going there for worship and everything actually(:
it was pretty fun today.
message was so-so,
but the whole time there was super fun:D
hahah!
oh well,
then janell got me involved in the database thingy for the whole church.
but now,
we just have to do the youth's one thats all:D
hahha.
too bad we dont get paid but its fun being involved in quite a few things:D
youth sub-committee,
database thingy,
worship team,
and dont know what else:D
hahha!
sighh,
really wish i can go out this week,
but i highly doubt so.
cos i probably wont get any money on acount i spent 40 in a day that time..
around 25 bucks on food!
thats alot,
considering i didnt really eat in some sushi tei type of thing:D
oh well,
i wanna go out!
boy,
this week is gonna be super duper whooper busy!
D:
with choir and all that ):
and here's my this week schedule:

monday- choir, 10am till 12pm
tuesday- free!
wednesday- free!
thursday- family gathering, out with cousin
friday- choir, 2-4pm

alright, i know it isint very packed,
but choir is crazy.
it will be,
cos there are two concerts in this whole month!
i dont know how am i going to live D:
and then,
schedule for the following week:
[12 nov-18nov]

monday- choir, 9.30-2.30; class camp.
tuesday- class camp
wednesday- class camp
thursday- choir, 1-3pm.
friday- free!
saturday- concert, 9-1.30
sunday- free!

oh mannn,
its super packed la D:
lol.
oh well,
hopefully class camp is so fun i forget everything:D
hoho(:
oh well,
thats about it for the day:D
toodles(:

oh boy,
i've no more to say to this whole trying-to-forget-it thing.
there's NO WAY i can forget it just like that.
no way.
so,
im not gonna think about it for now.
im just gonna let it be.

oh,
almost forgot,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!:D
haha,
it kinda sucks that it's your sister's birthday and you gotta obey her for a day and get her whatever she wants,
but i rather bake her a cake than give her those tights she wanted:D
hoho(:

tag replies!

celine- hello back! love you too(:

deborah- haha, well, good to get involved:D haha! oh well, im kinda freaked out by the thought that your singing and many pairs of eyes are staring at you:D haha. but im just a backup vocalist(:

sarah-ann- haha, you should have more money than me. it has been 2 years(: oh well, its pretty addictive! easy to earn money too(: heh. and its great deborah plays too! :D

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