ALOHA! I'm Michelle, 15 going on SWEET 16 5th February. I'm not a nerd though i'm in a triple science class, cross my heart. The Fairfield Choir is the best opportunity i ever got, and it'll rock your socks off. Starbucks is totally awesome and kicks ass! I've a penchant for pink, i'm mad about Choir Clique and crazy over God.:)


♥ada
♥adelin
♥ailin, jessica
♥al-emporio
♥allinda
♥allison tan

♥brendan

♥celine
♥celine, jessica
♥chatterhoax
♥chin ngee

♥deborah
♥dione

♥elisse
♥elle
♥esther
♥eunice
♥eunice, celine

♥faye
♥fenny

♥huiling

♥jessica
♥jianping
♥jolenda
♥jolenda2
♥juniper

♥kaixin
♥kimberley kiew
♥kimberly choo

♥laozhabor
♥leonard
♥lincoln

♥meiying
♥minxian

♥natalia
♥natalia, sarah
♥nicole wong
♥noelle

♥pamela
♥petros

♥rebecca
♥rebecca lau
♥richelle
♥ruijun

♥sarah-ann
♥sofia
♥soh&low

♥vanessa

♥wallic
♥wing sze

♥xiaxue
♥xi yun
♥xing yi
♥xiuwen
♥xiu yun

♥yee wei
♥yukling

♥zoey

♥6c '06
♥6D '06
♥6g '06


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Sunday, 15.11.09, 11.56pm

i'm listening to hsm3 songs non-stop.
just three of them only,
but somehow, i can only relate to 'can i have this dance'.
but none of it, however, can make me feel any better.

i'm pretending to be happy now.
but inside,
i feel completely horrid.
totally horrid.
so torn up.
i don't know what to do.
i'm just selfish, unsupportive, and just has the worst attitude towards certain things.

why do i even deserve all of you?
why did i get what i want?
why am i reacting this way despite you letting it go already?
why am i so desperate to get you to do things my way?
W.H.Y?

Labels: a night to remember

STREAMING RESULTS OUT.
and i got triple.
cannot be more thankful.
i got history, which is my choice, and i'm SUPER grateful.
but quite a few from history got pushed to geog.
which i'll talk about later.
but anyway,
i don't actually find it fair.
i know, resources are limited.
but shouldn't the school also accomodate students' interests?
i'm not talking about stream, but their choice of humanities and stuff like that.
they should honour it.
they can't force everyone to study that subject they don't like.
maybe the interest has to be nurtured,
but isn't it easier to let students choose the one they like most,
so they can do better easily and faster too?
sigh!

looking at the results,
i can't say much about those who got into my class,
but i do feel horrid.
i'm not saying this to be sarcastic if anyone was thinking that way, but sincerely,
i don't feel happy at all.
only relief.

look, you should know who you are.
geog doesn't mean you'll die tomorrow or something.
be strong, throw all the possible valid and great reasons in, and send in that appeal.
it might work out.
afterall, i know you did way better in history than in geog,
and it might change their minds.
i told you they might push history-interested people in geog,
and i rather be in your shoes right now.
i feel horrid too.
and i'm NOT at all happy, so please don't think that way either.
SO many people are affected too, by the whole i-want-xx-but-i-got-yy situation.
pray hard someone in triple wants geog instead of history,
then there's your chance!
if those up there actually must have equal number of geog and history in each class.
no matter what, you can come talk to me.
EVERYTHING will be sorted out.
alright?

and deborah!
i really feel the incident yesterday, all these happenings with you and the streaming,
will bring us closer,
which i already feel so! :D
don't worry about streaming okay.
i'm really not happy for ALOT of people also.
they think that i got what i want, but i rather other people be happy than get what i wanted.
so chill,
everything will work out!
meantime, concentrate on getting well, i'm here for you.
i'll try to bring the whole choir clique to visit you alright? (if you can and want)
:D
if you want, i can even spend the day with you since i've dental on wednesday.
:D
i love you babe, and i know you've the abililties to get into double.
you're way above that standard even.
:D

i feel kinda down now.
feel like crying but i can't.
sigh.
i'm so relieved yet frustrated.
this whole thing's affecting me so much.

and thanks allinda for today.
love you babe.

Labels: this is the last time to get it right

Labels: can i have this dance

i'm sorry, for everything.
and no, i never ever had the intention of 'using' you.
you're a too good friend to give up.
and today's accident made me realise how important you are,
and how anything can just happen.
i'm sorry.
i know i've disappointed you, i've let you down.
but we WILL be the bestest of the bestest bestest friends again,
and i will make it up to you.

and also,
i don't know what you meant by what you said when you came in just now.
i don't want to think so negatively.
but whatever it is,
come to me,
tell me about,
and cry on my shoulder if you need to.
i love you and i'll be here for you.
:D

streaming results coming out tomorrow!
people might say i'm a shoo-in for triple,
but i beg to differ.
the unexpected might happen.
33rd in class is a risky position to be in.
i just hope for the best.

tuesday's outing with ailin, allinda, ada, serena, sherrill, jamie, joanna, aaron, eugene, tianli and weng shian was super duper fun!
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!
:D :D :D :D
ALOT of songs are stuck in my head.
man.
and the whole movie was pretty nice.
i'm a sucker for musicals now.
hahah!
i like the part where ryan and sharpay were singing 'i want it all'.
super carabet style!
and sharpay looked ridiculous, hehe.
but overall,
it was really nice.
i don't know how come i just suddenly liked hsm,
but i'm glad i like it.
cos i don't regret watching it!
i don't even mind watching it AGAIN.
the ending part was super touching.
i think i'm over-emotional.
i cry too much.
:D

cam-whored abit after that,
and then went 79 to play guitar hero, mario kart and pool.
and i'm proud to say i SUCK at guitar hero!
for now, at least. my first time playing mah. :S
THREE buttons only and i can't even get it.
i keep pressing the wrong ones.
:(
pool was fun!
i think i owned one game, i think.
mario kart was stupid, i kept losing.
saw mr joel li in 79.
nearly forgot he's from GMC!
:D

well,
i keep watching my favourite korean show.
and i watch it for like what, 7 hours straight?
i know, crazy, but the whole show's really nice, and never fail to make me reflect on my own life.
cos the show somehow mirrors my current life.
ironic eh.
everything i watch nowadays relate to me so much.
sigh!

alright, i shall wake up bright and early tomorrow to check for streaming results.
i can only hope for the best.
:S

deborah, get well soon!
i miss you but don't worry about cancelling our 'date' for tmr,
health's more important.
besides,
maybe it's God's plan to think through what we've to say to each other before we meet up?
maybe.
but i'm sure thinking alot about what to say already.
take care alright.
i love you!


It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Labels: sixteen sixteen.

it's finally not raining anymore.
just realised.
:)

i was looking through all my sharing folders on msn when i came across a video.
the video we both made at your house,
the one with all the chipmunk-y voices and superb credits.
the very first video edit you did.
i never really got to see the second one yet; maybe i have but i forgot how it's like.
but just watching this video again,
totally made me cry,
especially the end.
no other video has made me laugh so much then cry when it came to the credits.
all i saw was the beautiful photos we took using the macbook,
the crazy duck and poodle cheer we came up with impromptu,
and all the stupid aeroplane, marriage course and random camp cheers in the video.
we captured every single bit of our fun that day,
and watching it made me cry.

everything then felt so perfect,
everything!
we were so close,
it's probably the best video anyone can film.
but now,
looking at the present,
it's really unlikely we'll make another video so soon.
nor take as many pictures.

i know i keep saying this and i've said it alot.
i really hope and pray that we'll have the good talk we need to patch things up, sort it out and just get as close as before again.
i know,
maybe once we've had the hard talk,
things won't be exactly the same as previously, cos you've your own group of friends which you probably will be happier with,
and so do i.
we both now have friends that make us equally happy anytime, anywhere,
and we can also count on them beside counting on each other.
the talk we need to have may be hard to approach, and hard to say,
but i know i've to face it somehow if i want to stop being so lost and extra-ded.
and for you, maybe just to be really good friends again.
i know it's selfish of me,
to 'ditch' you for other good stuff that came my way,
but i've never ever forgotten us, and the times we had like in the video.
but the video just reminded me more of what we have to do and what i've to do to save this whole friendship.

i do miss your company alot and certain things i do remind me of the times we had.
i sincerely apologise again, and it's not for the sake of having another friend,
but it's to regain the friend and her trust and everything cos i've come to realise that this friend i lost,
is really the bestest friend i have.
i may have so many best friends,
but i know and i admit only the friend i lost is really and truely my real best friend.
we shared so many secrets, so much fun,
i still owe you money but you don't actually mind.
all these,
is making me miss the friend i lost to my selfishness.
i just pray i can have both worlds:
you and the reason i lost you as my bestest friend.
i just hope we'll be super duper drop dead gorgeous-es in no time and i won't feel so horrid around you anymore.
cos now i do,
and it isn't the best feeling i've ever had,
and i want and need to make everything right again.
even while with the clique,
i feel more out than anyone else.
you guys have grown closer,
i've drifted away.
i just hope i'm able to grow closer to you all again and once i do,
i promise i'll never ever be that selfish to sacrifice you all again,
especially the super duper whooper drop dead gorgeous.

i hope i'm not forcing you to 'get back together' though.
cos if you really want to stay as the way stuff are now,
i'm fine too.
just that exams are long over and we really need a good, long talk to sort things out.
so,
i can't wait to go out with you soon.
i've made SO many mistakes in my life, and this has gotta be the hugest.

i never knew videos and pictures could evoke my emotions and affect me so much.
i'm currently an emotional wreck,
though i'm not crying anymore.
i think i've no more tears ever since i cried myself to sleep that night.
:/

random but long post,
so i'm sorry about it.
no one reads my blog anymore anyway,
so actually, why am i apologising for typing such a long post?

it's sort of the official holiday already!
:D
but really really,
the worst day of my life i think.
there's no more 2E already.
it's seriously been the best class i've ever had now looking back,
and i think and i admit, even better than 4F'04?
i know i'm a bit biased due to all the good stuff that's happened this year,
and some people in my class i can't live without,
but it's really been the most fun!
I AM MISSING 2E REALLY BADLY NOW.
i will do ANYTHING to have some sort of full class reunion man.
where EVERYONE will go and not miss out.
:(

anyway,
yesterday was super camwhore day!
never ever camwhored so much with ailin and all.
i'm gonna miss her ALOT.
i know you won't read this ailin, but i wanna thank you for every single time i've troubled you during school or whatever,
and i just want you to know that i super duper love you and will miss you alot!
now no more doing stuff together.
:(
I WILL MISS YOU AILIN!
:(

anyway,
gave the presents to those who were leaving and letters to the rest.
derek got his cardboard box home and his soccer ball which we later wrote messages on it so now the ball's basically filled with black words and no more white background.
:S
gave serena a huge jar of sweets, hearts and all.
ailin the red & black mirror and soft toys,
while i gave her a whole bunch of small animals with a letter on each to spell out her name.
i promised her i'll get that and i did!
:D
gave esther one of the small animals too.
i think i camwhored with ailin the most.
and also,
simitaiji is officially not in the same class anymore.
sigh.
:(

yesterday was a waste of time but i'm glad i went,
cos it was seriously such a happy day anyway.
and,
after that we went to play volleyball! and basketball.
i think i'm getting better at basketball though.
i scored 3 shots in a row!
but still lost to dione though.
dione, you're a meano!
hahaha.

i've nothing to do today,
and i've no idea what to do.
i wanted to go out today but oh well,
everyone's not free?
:S
i think i might blog alot today.
sorry if i start bombarding my blog with countless entries today!
:)

i cried myself to sleep on wednesday night.
you demoralised me SO much, i couldn't help it.
you're practically said in my face, "these are lousy grades".
yes,
i might want to do better,
but i think i gave my BEST in this year already.
i obviously improved from last year.
AND in case you DIDN'T know,
eoy exam makes up 55% of your total grade.
it's cos of my B4 in lit that MADE ME GET A B3,
AND NOT COS I DIDN'T DO WELL IN THE WHOLE YEAR.
get your FACTS right first.

though i've mostly forgot about wednesday,
but i cannot stand all this nonsense anymore.
you just simply don't believe i can make it into triple right?
and by telling me to take D&T out of ALL THINGS,
you're INSULTING me, saying combined is all i can handle.
and d&t is better.
WHAT SHIT.
d&t will KILL my grades.
and you're just insulting my intelligence.
no wait, you're DOUBTING me.
DOUBTING I CAN SURVIVE IN TRIPLE.
i don't even want to show you i can do it,
i will PROVE it to you.
but if i knew i tried my best,
what else matters?
maybe to you,
even me getting all A1s will not be ENOUGH for you i bet.
you probably want me to score everything 100% right?
sorry, impossible.

i can't believe that night,
on 31st march,
i could CRY for almost one hour,
and telling you how MUCH and how BAD it hurts to be doubted of intelligence and ability,
which only i knew the real intelligence and ability i have.
and you PROMISED me you won't pressure me as much anymore.
do you not think i don't know streaming is so important?
do you think triple is so damn hard,
your own DAUGHTER cannot even make it and you're telling her to combined?

and i cannot believe that i fell SICK on 1st april, which was seriously a joke in itself.
i fell sick cos i was telling you how horrible you all were treating me?
i may be smarter than my own sister.
but it doesn't mean i've ten times her ability and intelligence only.
it's just a little smarter,
and what do you do?
you scold me like crap when i know i actually did better than most people and i'm contented.
at least i've been CONSISTENT IN MY GRADES.
if i get into triple,
lit won't bother me so much anymore.
why can't you just let me CHOOSE without you DRIVING me to some course that i know i won't like and i can get into a better course?
you say i'm so smart,
but you keep telling me i'm better off going into combined.
so is that your way of insulting me?
doubting me?
sorry.
i don't even care now if you threaten to chase me out of my house.

i hate it when you make me say sorry for something i don't even know what happened.
and from then on,
you TALK TO ME AS IF I OWE YOU MY LIFE.
YOU START THREATENING ME,
YOU'RE JUST RUINING ALL MY FUN.
YOU CHOOSE THE WORST TIMES TO SCOLD ME.
I GO OUT TO HAVE SOME FUN AFTER EXAMS AND DURING HOLIDAYS,
YOU WON'T LET ME.
ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO SAY YOU'RE FAIR?!
cos that night when you asked if it was fair and square to not approve of me going out anymore and i said yes,
i meant the TOTAL opposite.
but could i say no to your fairness question?
i highly doubt so,
cos you'll end up threatening me.
what kind of father threatens his own daughter?
someone tell me.

i'm sure that one fine day,
when you keep doubting me,
i'll lose myself, lose all control, and probably even run away.
don't say i'm threatening you now,
cos it's nothing compared to what you keep doing and telling me.
just WHEN will you be satisfied with the grades i got?
or will you only be happy when i come to you and start crying?

something's gotta give.
and I'M NOT GIVING IN ANYMORE.

if you can't read the words above,
don't bother trying to read.
i need a place where i can say everything out and i need to say it right HERE,
regardless of whoever comes.
critisise me all you want,
but i'm not that tolerant when it comes to such stuff,
especially when it's happened for so long,
i don't even know how long.

today was pretty slack-ish in cass.
did nothing much,
was practically some come-to-school-and-slack day!
went vivo later.
swapped my turquoise top for the red one,
since some people said red looked nicer, and will look nice on me, and that turquoise was ugly, and since i have a similar top, get the red one.
:/
a super duper long explanation i know,
but that's the reasons i got, haha!
went plaza sing later, and after walking around, fooled around in carrefour.
and yeah, shan't go into details.

anyway,
today's like a happy (yet sad) day for everyone, mostly.
sort of last official school day for ailin, serena, derek and esther goh.
:(
sigh.
i'll miss ailin for being ailin and my 'partner' since p6!
oh yeah,
and serena for just everything she talks to me about,
and derek for making some classes fun, especially maths!
i will miss them alot.
can't wait for chalet/farewell/bbq or whatever.
i need to give ailin and serena a proper hug.
:(
i think i will end up bawling the whole night or something.
:/

well,
tomorrow i'm going out with allinda and dione!
meeting up at 10am in school.
i seriously need my beauty sleep,
though i will probably sleep 8 hours at the rate i'm using the computer.
amazing how much time i can waste on the comp when my flash is so called outdated and everything can't work.
:(

most likely gonna see most 2E-rians in 3E or whichever class next year!
fine by me though,
it'll still be quite lively i hope.
but i'll miss allinda, dione and eugene SUPER ALOT.
they've been the BEST group mates one can ever ask for.
we slack, but still get the job done.
i LOVE my lit group,
and if we all go different classes,
i hope we all will still be as close.
i'll miss chew and dione the most i think.
plus ailin.
the whole simitaiji gang is like split!
:(

i've been thinking alot ever since the start of this week.
this whole year has passed so fast! (okay, long post. :D)
super lot of stuff has happened.
2008 is indeed and will be probably the MOST eventful year i've ever had.
even if anything happens,
i doubt i'll regret a single thing.

i've been to the MOST concerts this year,
so many positive stuff has happened,
i've so much memories locked away,
and had the MOST fun this year.
i seriously won't change my life for anything or anyone's life.
my life is so great so far, and i can't believe i, at one point, wished i could be another person.
i think it takes alot to realise things like that.
sounds abit inlogical and senseless at this time,
but this year is also the year that made me so thankful!
there's only TWO days left to this school year,
and i actually NEVER want it to end.
level camp was so fun,
certain dates i proved i'll never forget,
and so many events,
i've even lost track.
i think everyone feels the same way too: this year has been, by far, the best.
probably makes you think twice about wanting to swap lives too.
:)

reading some letters also made me realise how much i've changed.
not for the worst, i hope, and i'm quite sure actually.
i've actually handled situations i thought i could never.
there's bound to be this huge problem ever year that i've to deal with.
this year has repetitive stuff.
and i admit, i let my sensitiveness get the better of me.
but sometimes,
your flaws turn out to be of good use.
you understand people better too!
to that certain someone,
i hope someday, a miracle will happen and somehow, we resolve any outstanding problems.
may take even longer than the next two years,
but i hope somehow,
we'll be on friendly terms.
i may still remember stuff people told me or i've heard,
but i think after typing this post,
i only remember them but don't bother or take to heart any of them now.
besides, critisism also helps you mature and improve right?
i just hope what you wrote was true,
and we're not talking about each other to other people anymore.
we're tried to solve the problems last year, but kinda failed.
so hopefully,
at around the same time this year, which is one year on,
we'll resolve the problems for GOOD.
pray that'll be the case!

i really think i've changed, grown and probably even matured.
my opinion though, so any changes that really happened,
only my closest friends are able to vouch for all those.
but really,
i think everyone has matured and grown up in some way.
sec two tends to be a playful year.
but after going through the horrid process of EOYs and choosing streams,
i think everyone has realised the importance of studies and friendships and no more pranking around.
and it's good though.
i know i actually love this batch of people.
if not,
there wouldn't be choir clique, simitaiji,
and all the friends i have.
i seriously think i need to start dedicating posts.
:)

i think i've seriously blogged ALOT,
but it's just all that i felt like at the point of time i was blogging.
suddenly michelle blogs like, super duper cheem.
i know, but i really think i needed to 'close' the year by reflecting.
i'm gonna miss everything in sec two,
but i hope i'll never forget them,
and the people who made it so memorable and possible.

choir clique, simitaiji, 2E and everyone else,
i love you all and i'll never forget anything i did with you.
especially choir clique and 2E.
you all made the year so great, and this sec two batch so fun.
:D

i shall dedicate stuff to choir clique soon.
i've so much to say.
:/

Labels: :(

HSM3 for 24 oct at GVmax: SUPER LOT BOOKED ALREADY!

what the la.
i hope i still get to watch.
i rather watch another day then watch while sitting right in front man.
hmph.

anyway,
i was kinda moody before tuition, happy after tuition, but now slightly moody.
okay, now maybe i'm happy.
happier.
:)

went shopping with my mum today!
and i'm seriously surprised.
usually she just says everything i like doesn't suit me, blah blah blah,
but i bought THREE items today.
she may have bought more than me,
but i'm still really happy.
:D
dress, flats and WALLET.
:D :D :D :D
hahaha, suddenly shopping makes me really happy!
feet hurts though, suck.
:(
but other than that, i'm seriously glad i went shopping with her today.
i finally have a new wallet like since beginning of sec one or even before!
okay, i'm just talking crap.
the dress was bought on the excuse i've nothing to wear (nothing nice enough) for a wedding.
and the shoes, i wanted heels but my mum refused to buy the ones that i wanted ALOT which were around $40.
:(

anyway,
today i'm a happy girl.
and i'm no longer moody.
:D
surprising how nowadays i'm getting really sensitive?
even more oversensitive i think.
you're away for longer than i thought you would take,
and i start feeling so alone and moody.
sheesh,
i really need more self-control over my emotions.
:/

anyway,
this week is last week of sec two.
my grades are around the same as mid-years i think,
but i know i've seriously tried my best.
it kinda sucks, but i'm grateful la.
no point sulking over it now.
i'm just praying hard that i can make it into triple science.
i really can't go double.
literature will pull me down and screw my results up.
:(
sigh.
chinese too.
looks like no reward from my sister now.
sigh!

i've seriously lost my blogging touch.
i know i've said it before, but it really stands out more now.
eeeeeeeeeee.
and i miss the computer, though stupid outdated flash is keeping me from doing alot of stuff online!

i hope i can go out again soon.
i really want to.
:(
shopping or whatever it may be,
i seriously need to go out.

i need choir clique.
i need shopping.
i need to go out.
i need my closest friends back.
i need triple science.
i need a new phone.
but i think no. 1 and 4 are most important.
i've realised alot of things ever since the day rebecca told me something.
i still can't get over it.
and somehow, it's my fault things don't feel right and as they were before.
i just hope i can settle it fast.
i really cannot take the silence anymore.
i somehow feel i've to try to be happy and fit in with your three.
i just feel like i don't belong with you all anymore.
the distance, the gap, it's just widening.
i feel so separated.
and probably,
you all might even feel we shouldn't really be that close anymore.
but it's understandable.

and happy 14th birthday chew bong bongsxzxzx,
hope you like the present.
TOOT really suits you.
:)
hope you had fun too.
:)

suddenly, i'm moody again.
and this time, i think it's for the right reason, and not a petty reason.

CLASS OUTING YESTERDAY WAS SUPER DUPER FUN!
:D

hahaha,
was pretty long.
time passed real fast though.
:(
anyway, i shall blog about it another time.
it's going to be a super duper long post and i don't want to type now.
not in the mood.
:(

tomorrow we're getting a few papers back.
i pray that i did quite okay,
if not better then i thought.
i'm really scared for history and maths.
and oh, science section C.
Mrs Ho's marking it! freaky.
I HOPE I JUST DON'T FLUNK ANYTHING AT ALL.
i want my triple science you know.

and it's scary how the year passes so quickly.
we're going to be sec threes next year already.
not looking forward to napfa though.
:(
argh.
now i'm seriously scared about tomorrow.
sheesh.

think of it this way.
they're really good friends who are concerned.
today's whole grilling thing was probably for our good.
maybe we both need to change a little bit.
you think so? :)

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12.09 now.
wow,
i'm still up.
:D

anyway,
my throat currently hurts everytime i swallow my saliva.
eeeee, hope i don't fall sick!
:/
tomorrow's class outing,
can't wait.
hahaha, just hope i don't over-smack the volleyball or something and end up with blue-blacks again!
or worst, a burst vein.
:(

i'm bored. that's why i'm blogging.
but actually,
i just don't want to get off the com.
stupid adobe flash player,
depriving me of my online shows!

okay, this was totally random.
I WANT TO GO OUT.
i need my social life back.
:(
and i need to cut my hair!
but everytime i want to cut, it happens to be a good hair day.
i think my life sucks.
:(

i'm so random.
eeeeeeeee, whatever.

get well soon.
i hope you can go tomorrow yeah?
:)

SARAH-ANN HAN, YOU ARE BOOKED FOR WEDNESDAY! :D

400th post! :D

anyway,
my com has been fixed.
and it's no virus.
just some stupid, USB add-on thingy that had some problem and now it's fixed.
worst thing is that, despite knowing the problem,
you STILL treat me with some attitude like I PURPOSELY WENT TO SPOIL THE FREAKING THING.
you seriously don't know me.
you really don't.

anyway,
i shall put that stupid issue aside.
if you just want to keep giving me the 'you owe me one' attitude,
i won't care anymore.
you're just making me lose respect for you each time you give me that attitude when i didn't even do anything wrong.

today,
was super duper funny.
everyone in church kept asking me and sarah-ann if we colour-co-ordinated our clothes today.
cos we wore exactly the same shade of blue and jeans!
scarily, alot of people wore blue.
:S
sad day i guess.

went holland to eat and walk around later.
the vietnamese beef noodle thingy was damn nice!
super addictive.
didn't get starbucks though.
:(
first time i didn't give in to temptation!
sigh.
well,
walked around to window shop.
holland is seriously boring though.

went for cell later,
had abit of cake, then came home.
sigh!
it's super boring.
doesn't even feel like end of exams la!
super dry mood nowadays.
everyone just wants to sleep, sleep and sleep!
stupid exams.
though i didn't mug overnight but i'm so tired out by it!
hopefully class outing tomorrow will start my hyperness and i will start going out and stuff.
i miss RMD, choir clique, church clique and class clique!
going out with sarah-ann after school on wednesday, hehhee.
friday, choir meeting.
2 whole hours!
sheesh.
then, probably on the 26th church clique shall go out and watch HSM 3 if we all didn't manage to watch on the day it opens.

i hope i can faster return to my social life.
i even have the urge to pick up my history book now!
eeeee, wonder how i could let go after last year's EOYs.
time flies.
sigh.

nothing much to blog already.
i seriously think i'm losing my blogging touch.
:(

ah crude,
have to go out for dinner in 5 mins.
lazy to go out.
i feel like being a REAL pig and just sleep, sleep and sleep!

glad you're alright now.
sorry, partially my fault.
:/

one moment i was happily surfing the net, watching rubbish videos.
now i am DAMN HELL PISSED OFF.

First,
you say i'm ADDICTED to the computer.
i wouldn't be online the WHOLE time today if it weren't for exams okay.
i can CONTROL myself, so STOP saying stuff that you think is true but isn't.
You call this addiction?
how about other people, who are constantly glued to their computer screens, watching online shows ALL THE TIME, even bringing their dinner in front of their computer?
at least i'm not THAT bad already.
what else do you want?!
study till results come out and if it's no good, STUDY MORE?!

Secondly,
IT IS NOT MY FAULT THE STUPID DESKTOP HAS A VIRUS OR WHATEVER.
do i LOOK like i'll be HAPPY to see my com CRASH?!
or LOSE MY FILES?!
EVERYTHING IN THERE MEANS ALOT OKAY.
ALL MY PHOTOS, EVERYTHING.
IF YOU THINK I WOULD DOWNLOAD ANY STUPID STUFF, YOU ARE WRONG.
VERY VERY WRONG.

it never really occured to you that there is a COMPUTER ADMINISTRATOR WHO HAS A PASSWORD IN WHICH I DO NOT NO SO I CANNOT DOWNLOAD ANY CRAP?!
has it EVER occured to you i REALLY DO NOT KNOW WHY IT CRASHED?!

in short, everything is just ME, ME AND ME.
when will you let me just say my piece?
when?
and when will you stop saying all your "don't come asking for me to repair it when you need it"?!
YOU YOURSELF said okay, i'll ask my colleague to try fix it when i told you earlier on.
now you want to use it, it also keeps restartig by itself, then you turn around and SCREAM AT ME AS THOUGH I SPOILED THE COMPUTER ON PURPOSE?!
i KNOW how much that freaking thing costs and how precious is ALL my stuff in there.
would i ever try to SPOIL THE COM?
even if it was my fault, it was UNINTENTIONAL.
i'm not that dumb to go open stupid emails you know.
i'm NOT THAT DUMB.

why is everything so SCREWED when exams are over?

and then i have to tolerate your whatever crap when results aren't satisfactory to YOU.
so what if i happen to be smarter.
it doesn't mean i'm 100% smarter than her.
i can just be 0.000001% smarter, just get better marks, BUT DOESN'T MEAN I'VE THE SUPER ABILITY TO TOP THE CLASS.

when, just when, will everything just WORK OUT?
if i've to endure TWO WEEKS of nagging cos of the freaking computer,
i don't know what to say already.
you just doubt my current ability, think i'm lazy.
WHO DOESN'T WANT GOOD GRADES, YOU TELL ME.

and in case you think i hate any of you, well, heck no. i'm just pissed off with the way you're treating me as if i'm some whiz kid who screws up SO bad, the WHOLE world goes into another great depression.

the only thing i'm looking forward to now is HSM3 in two weeks.

i can HARDLY wait.

Labels: screwed.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
like a finally.
worst part is that it doesn't feel like it's over though.
dang.

went with allinda, ada, serena, elisse and yukling to watch house bunny at tiong.
i seriously thought it would be super bimbo and all,
but other that the first quarter of the show which was super sick and wrong,
the rest was super touching and everything,
i CRIED.
rarely happens.
:)
hehehe.
we all didn't mind watching it again!
not much laughs,
but the cinema was practically empty,
so who cares?
it's worth our $6.
:D

anyway,
went macs after that,
talked and ate.
everyone was feeling sleepy so we decided to play a game.
we drew lots to see who's what and all that,
and went crazy squeezing each other's hands.
making so much noise!
later mrt-ed home with elisse.
if today i didn't go with them,
don't know what will i do man.
:(

ah,
and at tiong,
we saw the cut-out stands or whatever it is at tiong!
high school musical THREE.
oh my gosh.
sharpay was wearing this pink dress,
and she looked JUST LIKE BARBIE.
-.-
then ryan looked goofy,
troy and gabriella looked super cute together.
gabriella actually looked really pretty! :D
her dress was damn nice.
i want.
:(
haha, and taylor and chad looked cool too.
taylor actually looked really skinny in the poster.
they're life-size i think.
and that makes sharpay really short.
:D

anyway,
exams are over.
chinese listening,
kinda hard.
i suck at chinese anyway.
and and,
science was superb!
pretty okay, hope i score in that.
maths,
ultimate killer la.
others quite alright.
EOYs have never been this stressful.
:(

alright,
will update again.
hopefully my com will be nice and start up properly.
keeps restarting before i can even log in to my computer.
stupid thing.
think it's screwed.
i can't afford to lose all my data!
:/
sheesh,
i don't want to keep using my sister's com.
hard to type man.

i think i lost my bloging touch.
whatever,
can't wait for outings, inter-class games and if results are satisfactory,
SHOPPING!
i can't wait.

and i can't wait for us to be like what we were.
i really miss you, super duper ultra drop-dead gorgeous.
i really really do.
:(
argh.

oh, and you.
please get well soon!
all my fault.
:(

Labels: EXAMS ARE OVEEEEEEEEEEER

i don't even know her,
but it's kinda scary.
wonder what will happen tomorrow and what will owyong say.

chew's coming over!
:D
though it's been almost half an hour since she was supposed to come,
and she hasn't appeared.
:(
sigh.

i think after every paper,
i need to mug really bad.
like,
tomorrow,
i shall go do last minute mugging for history.
i've practically half a day to do so.
just wonder who's willing to go out and mug with me.
:D

exams tomorrow.
i think i'm kinda screwed.
:(

Lord, please help me. :(

Labels: 130 and counting.

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