if its ever gonna be better, i need assurance now.
today was pretty fun.
went ikea with deborah and all, and got some stuff for RYMD.
my idea and i wanted to pay for all, but deborah let me pay only half.
:S
lessons totally sucked.
the only time i seriously went mad was 2nd time of e maths.
adriel and nicholas are ridiculous, seriously.
all their stupid songs.
but other than that, i couldn't exactly concentrate.
i got so jittery even in first period.
so glad weekend's coming.
probably can concentrate more.
but right now, its really horrible.
especially bio.
total, ugh.
anyway, i really hope this can be over soon.
6 days, very long.
and no, not my birthday.
sort of la, but whatever.
concerns like everything?
don't bother asking me even if you wanna know.
i'm not gonna say anything at all.
don't force me.
actually not much mood to blog.
went really mad on the bus cos i kept playing with the stuff we bought.
and finally i got to eat ikea meatballs! :D
i really need alot of support right now.
i can't be exactly bothered with anything except this.
its zapping my concentration away!
gosh.
and i totally failed e maths class test.
i'm such a dood.
i got HALF of what ada got.
wth, i'm so pissed off at myself.
and i know teachers have alot of authority,
but they DON'T have the authority to use violence just to WAKE PEOPLE UP.
wth, hitting people so hard and loud and repeatedly with a book is just SO not okay la.
and its someone else's book.
zomg, everyone's going mad now, i think.
going crazy and doing really bizzare things?
and assembly this morning, zomg.
i hate to say this, but 2009 sucks so far.
and thursdays sucks even more.
i really hate this.
i don't want to cry on my birthday.
i wish i was born earlier or later.
so many freaking tests on the week/day itself.
and just before it,
i've to find out if i'm gonna be more upset or happy.
its one or the other.
extreme but that's a fact.
i'm praying very hard for a positive change.
really.
no ONE deserves an unhappy birthday, or an unhappy life.
NO ONE.
but life's just ironic.
GET WELL SOON YEEWEI. :)
this thing totally sucks.
its like 'day one' now.
freaking horrible.
like, another 3+ more actual days to suffer,
not counting weekends,
then i'll know whether i'm gonna be totally free or really happy once again. talking about ikea, i really miss those times.
so much.
i wish it could be back to normal soon, even before the deadline is up.
maybe i didn't cherish enough, or maybe i was being taken for granted.
i really want it to begin right, and not cry my whole life out,
nor cry for myself on my own birthday.
its just not right, not what it should be.
cos if others can survive so long,
so can we, if we were even supposed to be.