we all hope you love flowers. there's dozens with you.
kinda tired right now.
have been on my feet since.. 5pm?
non stop till about 11+.
wake today was kinda alright.
i 'broke my promise' and cried.
but it's okay.
cos it's really natural.
and i'm kinda emotional nowadays?
but it wasn't a gloomy mood or anything.
the only thing was that i didn't dare to go see him.
even the thought of seeing him lying in there is freaking me out.
but i know i have to muster the courage to go see him,
cos it'll be the last time.
saw mr malvin chan, miss ng may gay and mrs rosalind ho today.
think mr chan recognised me?
hehehe.
but ah well.
service was really horrid for me,
cos beginning i was already tearing.
i was like looking around,
and my eyes rested on where he was lying.
and i just couldn't help it.
even though he changed his address from 'earth' to 'heaven',
but who can't help but cry?
one funny thing though,
that basically united all the cousins together,
was this certain 'peanut woman'.
she kept helping herself to the peanuts.
seriously.
she probably ate 3 packets by herself.
and worse still,
one packet can probably feed three tables.
like, you know.
pour on plate and give to each table.
and there was freaking 2 untouched plates near her,
but she kept taking?
and people from her table keep taking drinks by themselves.
HELLO, one freaking pack is $1.60.
not that i'm stingy,
but be more considerate la!
come on.
you taking advantage of the situation on hand is it.
wth.
:S
well anyway,
our uncle kept telling us to 'stop her',
which was just sarcasm la.
she's seriously really horrid.
she can ask my YOUNGEST cousin who's only 8,
"can i take? can i can i?".
obviously using a small kid to get peanuts right.
and my cousin had to keep poking me and going,
"she's taking them again!" after my uncle told us that if she asks if she could take another packet,
we should tell her to clean all the tables to earn herself a pack of peanuts.
aiya,
in short.
she's NUTS.
desperate for them.
:D
teehee,
it's meant to be somehow a pun. :)
a sick one, ahahaha.
well anyway,
thanks everyone for their support and encouragement.
really love you guys alot.
:)
even if none of my friends come tmr or whatever,
it's fine by me.
encouragement is good enough.
:D
well anyway,
i must say,
my grandpa looks really handsome in that picture.
he's finally in the newspaper.
so is my name.
but i rather not have my name there if i had a choice.
no one wanted this to happen,
though it will to everyone.
i'm just going to miss his cuteness everytime my sister disturbs him when he shuts his eyes.
how he will immediately respond when we go, "mr leong!",
and everything else i've witnessed.
but now, those eyes are going to shut and never open.
and though i wasn't that close to him,
but seeing the family photo is enough to trigger the tears.
he was so cute.
i hope you're having a great time in Heaven, grandpa.
i'll miss you loads.
and so will everyone.
no more suffering,
just happiness and laughter.
:)
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
- it's so how i'm feeling right now.
i broke my promise, but i'm glad it wasn't really meant to be one anyway.
thank you so so much.
though you won't go tmr or whatever,
but you've been such a great pillar for me.
:)