ALOHA! I'm Michelle, 15 going on SWEET 16 5th February. I'm not a nerd though i'm in a triple science class, cross my heart. The Fairfield Choir is the best opportunity i ever got, and it'll rock your socks off. Starbucks is totally awesome and kicks ass! I've a penchant for pink, i'm mad about Choir Clique and crazy over God.:)


♥ada
♥adelin
♥ailin, jessica
♥al-emporio
♥allinda
♥allison tan

♥brendan

♥celine
♥celine, jessica
♥chatterhoax
♥chin ngee

♥deborah
♥dione

♥elisse
♥elle
♥esther
♥eunice
♥eunice, celine

♥faye
♥fenny

♥huiling

♥jessica
♥jianping
♥jolenda
♥jolenda2
♥juniper

♥kaixin
♥kimberley kiew
♥kimberly choo

♥laozhabor
♥leonard
♥lincoln

♥meiying
♥minxian

♥natalia
♥natalia, sarah
♥nicole wong
♥noelle

♥pamela
♥petros

♥rebecca
♥rebecca lau
♥richelle
♥ruijun

♥sarah-ann
♥sofia
♥soh&low

♥vanessa

♥wallic
♥wing sze

♥xiaxue
♥xi yun
♥xing yi
♥xiuwen
♥xiu yun

♥yee wei
♥yukling

♥zoey

♥6c '06
♥6D '06
♥6g '06


layout: detonatedlove♥
picture: sugarskinned
editing: mich..elle!♥

Last edited:
Sunday, 15.11.09, 11.56pm

it's sort of the official holiday already!
:D
but really really,
the worst day of my life i think.
there's no more 2E already.
it's seriously been the best class i've ever had now looking back,
and i think and i admit, even better than 4F'04?
i know i'm a bit biased due to all the good stuff that's happened this year,
and some people in my class i can't live without,
but it's really been the most fun!
I AM MISSING 2E REALLY BADLY NOW.
i will do ANYTHING to have some sort of full class reunion man.
where EVERYONE will go and not miss out.
:(

anyway,
yesterday was super camwhore day!
never ever camwhored so much with ailin and all.
i'm gonna miss her ALOT.
i know you won't read this ailin, but i wanna thank you for every single time i've troubled you during school or whatever,
and i just want you to know that i super duper love you and will miss you alot!
now no more doing stuff together.
:(
I WILL MISS YOU AILIN!
:(

anyway,
gave the presents to those who were leaving and letters to the rest.
derek got his cardboard box home and his soccer ball which we later wrote messages on it so now the ball's basically filled with black words and no more white background.
:S
gave serena a huge jar of sweets, hearts and all.
ailin the red & black mirror and soft toys,
while i gave her a whole bunch of small animals with a letter on each to spell out her name.
i promised her i'll get that and i did!
:D
gave esther one of the small animals too.
i think i camwhored with ailin the most.
and also,
simitaiji is officially not in the same class anymore.
sigh.
:(

yesterday was a waste of time but i'm glad i went,
cos it was seriously such a happy day anyway.
and,
after that we went to play volleyball! and basketball.
i think i'm getting better at basketball though.
i scored 3 shots in a row!
but still lost to dione though.
dione, you're a meano!
hahaha.

i've nothing to do today,
and i've no idea what to do.
i wanted to go out today but oh well,
everyone's not free?
:S
i think i might blog alot today.
sorry if i start bombarding my blog with countless entries today!
:)

i cried myself to sleep on wednesday night.
you demoralised me SO much, i couldn't help it.
you're practically said in my face, "these are lousy grades".
yes,
i might want to do better,
but i think i gave my BEST in this year already.
i obviously improved from last year.
AND in case you DIDN'T know,
eoy exam makes up 55% of your total grade.
it's cos of my B4 in lit that MADE ME GET A B3,
AND NOT COS I DIDN'T DO WELL IN THE WHOLE YEAR.
get your FACTS right first.

though i've mostly forgot about wednesday,
but i cannot stand all this nonsense anymore.
you just simply don't believe i can make it into triple right?
and by telling me to take D&T out of ALL THINGS,
you're INSULTING me, saying combined is all i can handle.
and d&t is better.
WHAT SHIT.
d&t will KILL my grades.
and you're just insulting my intelligence.
no wait, you're DOUBTING me.
DOUBTING I CAN SURVIVE IN TRIPLE.
i don't even want to show you i can do it,
i will PROVE it to you.
but if i knew i tried my best,
what else matters?
maybe to you,
even me getting all A1s will not be ENOUGH for you i bet.
you probably want me to score everything 100% right?
sorry, impossible.

i can't believe that night,
on 31st march,
i could CRY for almost one hour,
and telling you how MUCH and how BAD it hurts to be doubted of intelligence and ability,
which only i knew the real intelligence and ability i have.
and you PROMISED me you won't pressure me as much anymore.
do you not think i don't know streaming is so important?
do you think triple is so damn hard,
your own DAUGHTER cannot even make it and you're telling her to combined?

and i cannot believe that i fell SICK on 1st april, which was seriously a joke in itself.
i fell sick cos i was telling you how horrible you all were treating me?
i may be smarter than my own sister.
but it doesn't mean i've ten times her ability and intelligence only.
it's just a little smarter,
and what do you do?
you scold me like crap when i know i actually did better than most people and i'm contented.
at least i've been CONSISTENT IN MY GRADES.
if i get into triple,
lit won't bother me so much anymore.
why can't you just let me CHOOSE without you DRIVING me to some course that i know i won't like and i can get into a better course?
you say i'm so smart,
but you keep telling me i'm better off going into combined.
so is that your way of insulting me?
doubting me?
sorry.
i don't even care now if you threaten to chase me out of my house.

i hate it when you make me say sorry for something i don't even know what happened.
and from then on,
you TALK TO ME AS IF I OWE YOU MY LIFE.
YOU START THREATENING ME,
YOU'RE JUST RUINING ALL MY FUN.
YOU CHOOSE THE WORST TIMES TO SCOLD ME.
I GO OUT TO HAVE SOME FUN AFTER EXAMS AND DURING HOLIDAYS,
YOU WON'T LET ME.
ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO SAY YOU'RE FAIR?!
cos that night when you asked if it was fair and square to not approve of me going out anymore and i said yes,
i meant the TOTAL opposite.
but could i say no to your fairness question?
i highly doubt so,
cos you'll end up threatening me.
what kind of father threatens his own daughter?
someone tell me.

i'm sure that one fine day,
when you keep doubting me,
i'll lose myself, lose all control, and probably even run away.
don't say i'm threatening you now,
cos it's nothing compared to what you keep doing and telling me.
just WHEN will you be satisfied with the grades i got?
or will you only be happy when i come to you and start crying?

something's gotta give.
and I'M NOT GIVING IN ANYMORE.

if you can't read the words above,
don't bother trying to read.
i need a place where i can say everything out and i need to say it right HERE,
regardless of whoever comes.
critisise me all you want,
but i'm not that tolerant when it comes to such stuff,
especially when it's happened for so long,
i don't even know how long.

THAT STARBUCKS CHRISTMAS 2009 BOTTLE!
Awesome Sweet Sixteen :)
Nokia 5800 Xpress Music
pink daniel yam dress!
tatty teddy! :)
2009 SYF gold (honours)
singapore flyer! :)
FORMULA ONE TIX!
triple science.
BALLOONS. :)
watch Jeff Dunham live!
London! Paris! Italy! Maldives!
HSM3 DVD



♥ November 2006
♥ December 2006
♥ January 2007
♥ March 2007
♥ April 2007
♥ May 2007
♥ June 2007
♥ July 2007
♥ August 2007
♥ September 2007
♥ October 2007
♥ November 2007
♥ December 2007
♥ January 2008
♥ February 2008
♥ March 2008
♥ April 2008
♥ May 2008
♥ June 2008
♥ July 2008
♥ August 2008
♥ September 2008
♥ October 2008
♥ November 2008
♥ December 2008
♥ January 2009
♥ February 2009
♥ March 2009
♥ April 2009
♥ May 2009
♥ June 2009
♥ July 2009
♥ August 2009
♥ September 2009
♥ October 2009
♥ November 2009
♥ December 2009
♥ November 2010


©2008 michelle.