Can i have this dance?
I wish this moment was ours to own it, and that it would never leave.

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Last edited:
Sunday, 15.11.09, 11.56pm
Friday, October 24, 2008
3:08 PM

it's finally not raining anymore.
just realised.
:)

i was looking through all my sharing folders on msn when i came across a video.
the video we both made at your house,
the one with all the chipmunk-y voices and superb credits.
the very first video edit you did.
i never really got to see the second one yet; maybe i have but i forgot how it's like.
but just watching this video again,
totally made me cry,
especially the end.
no other video has made me laugh so much then cry when it came to the credits.
all i saw was the beautiful photos we took using the macbook,
the crazy duck and poodle cheer we came up with impromptu,
and all the stupid aeroplane, marriage course and random camp cheers in the video.
we captured every single bit of our fun that day,
and watching it made me cry.

everything then felt so perfect,
everything!
we were so close,
it's probably the best video anyone can film.
but now,
looking at the present,
it's really unlikely we'll make another video so soon.
nor take as many pictures.

i know i keep saying this and i've said it alot.
i really hope and pray that we'll have the good talk we need to patch things up, sort it out and just get as close as before again.
i know,
maybe once we've had the hard talk,
things won't be exactly the same as previously, cos you've your own group of friends which you probably will be happier with,
and so do i.
we both now have friends that make us equally happy anytime, anywhere,
and we can also count on them beside counting on each other.
the talk we need to have may be hard to approach, and hard to say,
but i know i've to face it somehow if i want to stop being so lost and extra-ded.
and for you, maybe just to be really good friends again.
i know it's selfish of me,
to 'ditch' you for other good stuff that came my way,
but i've never ever forgotten us, and the times we had like in the video.
but the video just reminded me more of what we have to do and what i've to do to save this whole friendship.

i do miss your company alot and certain things i do remind me of the times we had.
i sincerely apologise again, and it's not for the sake of having another friend,
but it's to regain the friend and her trust and everything cos i've come to realise that this friend i lost,
is really the bestest friend i have.
i may have so many best friends,
but i know and i admit only the friend i lost is really and truely my real best friend.
we shared so many secrets, so much fun,
i still owe you money but you don't actually mind.
all these,
is making me miss the friend i lost to my selfishness.
i just pray i can have both worlds:
you and the reason i lost you as my bestest friend.
i just hope we'll be super duper drop dead gorgeous-es in no time and i won't feel so horrid around you anymore.
cos now i do,
and it isn't the best feeling i've ever had,
and i want and need to make everything right again.
even while with the clique,
i feel more out than anyone else.
you guys have grown closer,
i've drifted away.
i just hope i'm able to grow closer to you all again and once i do,
i promise i'll never ever be that selfish to sacrifice you all again,
especially the super duper whooper drop dead gorgeous.

i hope i'm not forcing you to 'get back together' though.
cos if you really want to stay as the way stuff are now,
i'm fine too.
just that exams are long over and we really need a good, long talk to sort things out.
so,
i can't wait to go out with you soon.
i've made SO many mistakes in my life, and this has gotta be the hugest.

i never knew videos and pictures could evoke my emotions and affect me so much.
i'm currently an emotional wreck,
though i'm not crying anymore.
i think i've no more tears ever since i cried myself to sleep that night.
:/

random but long post,
so i'm sorry about it.
no one reads my blog anymore anyway,
so actually, why am i apologising for typing such a long post?

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THAT STARBUCKS CHRISTMAS 2009 BOTTLE!
Awesome Sweet Sixteen :)
Nokia 5800 Xpress Music
pink daniel yam dress!
tatty teddy! :)
2009 SYF gold (honours)
singapore flyer! :)
FORMULA ONE TIX!
triple science.
BALLOONS. :)
watch Jeff Dunham live!
London! Paris! Italy! Maldives!
HSM3 DVD

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